space shift

Hi everyone .. this space has been much loved .. in case you ended up here .. please redirect your efforts to the space I more frequently visit and write at ..

Now I have got two blogs running (hopefully) .. may be not be vry vry regular ..

Writing: http://me-myself-and-irony.blogspot.com/

which ealier happened to be .. http://me-australia.blogspot.com/ .. I made a few changes now and hopefully would continue writing here .. atleast for a while

Pictures: http://a-canvas-of-my-own.blogspot.com/

a photoblog which I long started but nevr persisted. I have developed a niche for collecting digital photographs lately .. somthing and nething that finds my eyes interest ... so if you wish to have my perspective on a picture that I adore .. u are more than welcome to visit that space .

Cheers
Anuj

REdirect

hey people, soie for not writting since long here. But I have been writing at some other place.
So redirect your efforts of visiting this page to :

http://me-australia.blogspot.com/

Wozztralia !!

cya then.

cheers !!
Anuj

hellow

It's been long since I have been here and done this 'writing myself out'. It pains to see this thing almost dying down because of me. Whenever (rarely though) I happen to visit my own page, it feels particularly odd to see the random dates that I have been posting on and the days elapsed between them. That very time I feel starting it all over again, from scratch, afresh, giving this a new life with new thoughts and more general opinions than the personal (pretty much stupid) poems, which I dont even feel writing these days.

So, whats been happening lately .. if anybody aks me this question, I just answer subtly and pretty much lazily, 'Well .. Nothing' and I realise that this can literally piss off people at times, specially the one who dreadly wish hear some or the other things from me, without caring for it being crap or totally senseless. And just like most of the guys I am so weird. We guys are not much in to this 'Sweet Talk' business. I care about nothing and no one, which I feel is bad, but it just happens on its own, somehow. I am not an intentional mood spoiler, but it just that at times I wish to be alone and all by myself (though it pisses me off more).

What have I been upto lately .. seriously .. nothing. Isn't this so weird, that this word 'nothing' which literally means 'nothing' makes quite a sense in my life. May be the things are too obvious to be told or written down. But as humans are pretty social, and they crave for all this 'sharing your things with others' thing, they expect from me that I should be more talkative then the mere Hmmm's, what, ya, and ohk's. Well I am a bit talkative.

I dont know where did all this came from. All the text above seems so stupifying. I am so confused, mused and ..... rite now. So, cya thn.

Adios !!

dark side

Move away YOU, no better than a pile of shit
I know you want to take me over
tear me up all apart, turn me to you
And you know, I would let it do

you scream inside me, a pain pretended
you cry rains within, to flood away my emotions
you ruin thyself, to prepare me for this filth
I wouldn't know you well, but you do exist

By the way, Who are you ..
MY darker side, isnt it?
I love that bright light up above
But you will pull me in to dark ..
M all black already ..

you raped me already of my own self
take every bit of me, I will stand this ground
I cant fight you nemore
You are the 'Bloddy' part of Me !!

down and under

How do u feel, when it breaks you down ?
when you realised, how much you have to pay to be true
when the distant dream is left alone, unrealised
when you only shrug your shoulders, saying, 'Its bound to be'

Can't you feel the sadness in my words, the dull conversations
In a room full of ballons, there's no child to play
the toys are alone all by themselves, the train awaiting
and no one comes, nd they shrug their shoulders, 'we are alone'

How do you stop your heart from bleeding, the shouts getting louder within
something pulling inside, few riding outwards, its hard to breathe
How do you lay alone here, uncovered, along this trash
ruptured emotions killing you inside, fearing the undone

I will sing you a lullaby, my words unsaid
I will live in unison with the dark within, holding it tight
the dark is all I have, the dark is all I adore
I will shrug my shoulders yet again, 'Oh yeah! I am fine' ..

PS: jus for a change .. this pic .. dnt mind plz

you will never know what I wanted
Cause I wont let you ever know
you figure out the dummy desires
Cause I will pose them to be

you will consider me to be rude
Cause I will be the guy who ignores
Friends would say that I am lucky
Cause I will hide the sores

I will never be forgotten .. Is it?
I will fade away for the better
Cause darkness would engross my being
Cause, to you I would be unseen

I would be lost in some memoirs
like songs you heard in past
I would pass away in smoke
like ash, I would fall down nd break ..

Free !!

I walk around aimlessly
overshadowded by my own mysery
I seem to be quite and settled
The mirror reflects, what you are not

The guy inside is restless
Finding questions to answers unheld
shouting prayers to wishes unheard
Trapped in detrimental rights and pleasurable wrongs

Only if the Head would witness a BIG BANG
and all would be scattered in directions unknown
Let different thoughts build their own mansion
Thus might end the war of making a choice ..

And I would be free as ever
one Soul !!