confused .... in a mood to revolt ..
Life is always on a swing ... when ur on a high .. ur excited , happy and u just wish tht the moments stop .. though theres a fear .. but theres this pact between FEAR & EXCITEMENT .... one hides the other .. rather most of the times one aides the other .... but when the swing comes down .. the excitement departs .. and u feel tht in the next swing u might fall .. and then fear takes over excitement .. and this fear induces a feeling of pain .. the pain of not touching the heights .... hte pain of fallling .... the pain of growing fear & departing excitement ..
A sloppy figure sitting on the chair .. the thoughts run .. the moods swing .. and its pain tht wins over all excitement & hapiness . U can nevr know when certain things that u dumped times back may turn back on to u .... not in the exact form .... a different look .. but the same perspective.
Understanding thy mind & thy heart .. has always been an arduous task. Apart from dealing them separately wht is most difficult is to understand the relationship the two share .. though it smells the same as that of FEAR & EXCITEMENT .... but here .. its not abt aiding or hiding the other .. its about conspiring. Each one conspires against each. If heart desires something .... the mind conspires to get the desire fulfilled .... and when the mind puts a demand .. the heart does the same . BUt in this doing & supporting the two contradict each other . And in this mutual warfare They create an atmosphere of confusion for the one who adheres to them.
GOD knew that if he was supposed to create soomeone whom he was to give enough powers to take his decisions & act accordingly .. then in order to prove thy superiority .... he was bound to render control not to a songle entity .... cause it wud never lead to difficulties & confusions .... and that was what he wanted him to learn face & fight .... the confusion ....
SO sitting here most of the time of a normal 24 hrs day .... i face this cofusion .. and as a brave warrior i never denied fighting it .. but then its a long battle .. and i aint that powerful to continue fighting endlessly .... and it is this time that one give up .. and surrenders .. though GOD wishes him to continue fighting ... but now tht i have learned by reading this book [ " THE FIFTH MOUNTAIN " by paulo coelho ] thts sometimes u r required to go against thy LORDS will .. and u need to fight GOD .... u dont quit ur deeds .. but u just forget ur past & move ahead .. without an air of confusion around .. against his will .... and against ur own thoughts ....
If untill yesterday I was crazy abt LOVE .. and the secrets tht it held .... it wasnt me who choose it .. it was something i was bound to be crazy abt .. i cudnt have helped it .... nobdy can help it .. whatever happens to u .. ur not accountable for those .... but ur sure accountable for ur deeds .. so all ugot to do is move along tht path .. and at times u may even voilate the path ....take a turn .. ultimately to return to it .. after some rest & some efforts [ though against ] .
SO i m not against love or something .... but i m against the confusion it creates .... the "longing for someone attacks" ..and obviously the pain it gives ... though pain is trustable .. fidle .. but do we really wish for it ?? or do we really have a choice ??
Lay a whisper on my pillow,
Leave the winter on the ground.
I wake up lonely,
There's air of silence in the bedroom
And all around.
Touch me now,
I close my eyes and dream away.
It must have been love
But it's over now.
It must have been good
But I lost it somehow.
It must have been love
But it's over now. [ ROXETTE ]
PS :: THe head was heavy .. the nose was red [ with flu ] .. and the temperature did the rest .. and then read MIRAGE's post .. and it nailed the coffin .. how can GOD be so cruel .. hasnt he got brains to think abt certain thngs & plan them accordingly . neways under these circumstances i m not to be blamed for this post.
A sloppy figure sitting on the chair .. the thoughts run .. the moods swing .. and its pain tht wins over all excitement & hapiness . U can nevr know when certain things that u dumped times back may turn back on to u .... not in the exact form .... a different look .. but the same perspective.
Understanding thy mind & thy heart .. has always been an arduous task. Apart from dealing them separately wht is most difficult is to understand the relationship the two share .. though it smells the same as that of FEAR & EXCITEMENT .... but here .. its not abt aiding or hiding the other .. its about conspiring. Each one conspires against each. If heart desires something .... the mind conspires to get the desire fulfilled .... and when the mind puts a demand .. the heart does the same . BUt in this doing & supporting the two contradict each other . And in this mutual warfare They create an atmosphere of confusion for the one who adheres to them.
GOD knew that if he was supposed to create soomeone whom he was to give enough powers to take his decisions & act accordingly .. then in order to prove thy superiority .... he was bound to render control not to a songle entity .... cause it wud never lead to difficulties & confusions .... and that was what he wanted him to learn face & fight .... the confusion ....
SO sitting here most of the time of a normal 24 hrs day .... i face this cofusion .. and as a brave warrior i never denied fighting it .. but then its a long battle .. and i aint that powerful to continue fighting endlessly .... and it is this time that one give up .. and surrenders .. though GOD wishes him to continue fighting ... but now tht i have learned by reading this book [ " THE FIFTH MOUNTAIN " by paulo coelho ] thts sometimes u r required to go against thy LORDS will .. and u need to fight GOD .... u dont quit ur deeds .. but u just forget ur past & move ahead .. without an air of confusion around .. against his will .... and against ur own thoughts ....
If untill yesterday I was crazy abt LOVE .. and the secrets tht it held .... it wasnt me who choose it .. it was something i was bound to be crazy abt .. i cudnt have helped it .... nobdy can help it .. whatever happens to u .. ur not accountable for those .... but ur sure accountable for ur deeds .. so all ugot to do is move along tht path .. and at times u may even voilate the path ....take a turn .. ultimately to return to it .. after some rest & some efforts [ though against ] .
SO i m not against love or something .... but i m against the confusion it creates .... the "longing for someone attacks" ..and obviously the pain it gives ... though pain is trustable .. fidle .. but do we really wish for it ?? or do we really have a choice ??
Lay a whisper on my pillow,
Leave the winter on the ground.
I wake up lonely,
There's air of silence in the bedroom
And all around.
Touch me now,
I close my eyes and dream away.
It must have been love
But it's over now.
It must have been good
But I lost it somehow.
It must have been love
But it's over now. [ ROXETTE ]
PS :: THe head was heavy .. the nose was red [ with flu ] .. and the temperature did the rest .. and then read MIRAGE's post .. and it nailed the coffin .. how can GOD be so cruel .. hasnt he got brains to think abt certain thngs & plan them accordingly . neways under these circumstances i m not to be blamed for this post.
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11 Comments:
Nice post...words flowed lucidly...uncluttered thoughts...the simplicity in your write up is quite appealing
@ nomadic waves :: thanx for visiting mate. Well sad mood & disheartening thoughts in ur mind make u write some original stuff ;) . Ya i do lack vocab .. so cant help .. so just put it simply .. and lol .. i dont knw the art of putting things luceratively .. and this has been a setback at many events in my life .. but then who cares .
One day, The goddess Aphodite will send her son Eros and he will come and will strike you with one of his golden arrows.
well i m afraid of god .. today seems to be ok .. it was yesterday night when something took over my mind .... lol .. GOD hav been kind to me ... hope he is now as well ..
well confusion..the only thing constant in my mind....
n buddy im tellin again ...u r the one who has to bring smiles on my face ...n i dont want u to be sad...for me anuj panwar means the guy who is bubbly n always makin me go mad with laughter
@ anuj :: lol .. one word for this is JOKER :).. or to do give a bit more respect to myself i wud say .. an amusing friend ;)
well anuj my suggetion is both u n dhruv take a break n have some party-sharty...u both need it... cheer up n take care
@ manjari :: dear friend theres nothing to worry .... both me & dhruv just go out of our minds for some moments .. jst a change of mood .. and then after the time passes .. we r all fine & happy . And abt party .... thts all we do here .. lol . U too take care ;)
u r wat the title of ur blog says,,
hopeless romantic!!!
Its a damn good post man! You really went into the depths of 'confusion' and surprisingly came out unharmed! and then ended it with the perfect song! way to go! :)
@ monks :: thanx man . and lol where did those calculations came frm .. experience ??
@ jive :: hi !! thanx for visiting .
@ phoenix :: Am i ?? really ?? Think over it .. again ;)
@ mirage :: ya sometimes a frustrated mind & creepy thoughts do the magic. and hey way to go ?? abt wht ??
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