Finally a Hope !!

Last few days of life have been quite Motivating. A mixture of self motivation & motivation from other parts of my life (ofcourse my friends). Well all this motivation has been there may be to resist a Change. A big one indeed.

Urs truly aNuj was moving towards a change. From a happy go creature to a maNiac deVdas. And obviously this is not acceptable to my friends ( GOSH !! how much they care ).And of time i have been realisisng this tht how imp it was to resist this change.

So friendz i m no more a deVdas ( though i m still a maNiac ....any crazy thing and u can turn up to me anytime .... i wont dissapoint ). Now the question wud be .... Wht happened to tht girl ......... lol ... SHE stays where SHE was .. my hEart ofcourse !! But this time loVe ( or whtevr they cal it .... infatuation .. attraction .. ) will be a poositiVe one. Very unconditional & motivating. May be this way i have a found a way of self motivation. Lets see how long it works.

Lol .. but the poems will keep coming. Sorry .... u will have to bear with it.

Well then if its not going to be SHE then wht am i goin to write abt. grrr ... Theres nothing else worth telling. The blogs r said to be INTERNET DIARIES ... but r they really ?? whtevr .... i use them to pen down my feelings.

September 18, 2005 :::::

The day .. or should i say midnite started with rupturing someone ASS .. well i didnt do it .. i was late ( and i m very considerate as well ). It was sandeeps Bday. Five minutes of gathering .... sometimes to celebrate & most of the times to satisfy the empty tummy .... as they have something or the other to eat.

But this life has its own fun. Came down after getting my part of the party done .... sat in front of the Pc .... lol ... i have been sitting here since years .... may be lifes. This is a hell lot of a prayer .... May be the god of IT ( i feel IT is on such a boom these days tht even GODS may feel the need of an IT department ) would be pleased ..... and thus grant me a Virus & Bug free platform called HEAVEN .

umm Its 3:24 .... morning 8:00 is a class .... a continous 5 hrs class .... lol ... lots of time to sleep. The techers a total geek .. knws a hell lota prigramming languages ..... uggh i hate this stuff. Craming up. And then lunch .... which i wont ever even dream to touch ... forget tasting it. Its been years since i had lunch. And then again a 3 hrs class.

Wow ..... wht a SUNDAY its gonna be. All fucked up. And then when i come back in the evenin ....a bit og BADDI .... and again ME & MY SUOLMATE computer. AAAHHH !! we make such a good pair. May be i should have fallen in loVe with it .... atleast we wud have been close.

Thts it for now. .. CIAO !!


So u just saw .... diary writing stuff .. isnt it boring. SO lets see wht has lifein store. Bubbly says it has much more to give !! So, presently i m enjoying this HOPE of being wht i have always been ...... SMILING ...