saNity vS insaNity

insaNity :: Hey I loVe her !!
saNity :: Wht the heck .... do u even knw wht loVe is ??
insaNity :: May be i dont .. but i do feel someThing. something nice & close.
saNity :: and wud u dare to tell tht somethinG plZZZ ..
insaNity :: weLL its a feeling tht has nevr been there or may i say ..which has always been there. Its abt feeling someone close to ur heart !!
saNity :: hahaha ... cLose to ur heart . Stupid SHE doesnt even recognise u. U were nevr cLose to her .... and may be u wont evr be close . and u call this SOMTHNG HAPPENING ..... it's so insane .....
insaNity :: Hey i nevr put those constraints of recognition. I knw the things r screwed up but i will find my way ...
saNity :: lOOk whos talkin !! U havent ever been able to find urselves .. how the hell r u supposed to find ways .... to an impossible ... rather a non existant destination ??
insaNity :: ok if its not loVe ..... wht the heLL is it ??
saNity :: May be attraction ....
insaNity :: attractions never last 5 long years ..
saNity :: thEn its insanity ...
insaNity :: But then there has to be a cause for this insanity .... isnt it ? and the cause is SHE .. so isnt it loVe .. to be waiting for a single person for 5 long years .... remembering her all day & night .... and that too when u dont even have memories of being together .. All i remember is a pretty & innocent face ..... and if it was not loVe then wht the hell in this world has let me remember HER .. Have i been stupid .. or have i been worse ..
saNity :: well dont knw ......
insaNity :: hahaha ... now thts insanity .. tHe very fact of not knowing is inSanity dear .... and if even saNity is not supposed to knw then who is ?? Am i trapped here ... unanswered ... Determined yet confused !!

Hey !! PHOENIX .... a very considerate reader gave me a solution. i read his blog & found tht hes in pain too. May be a pain bitter then mine (or theres no pain for me .... its just an illusion .... but i have nevr admitted to be an illusion .. rather i m not ready to take it tht way). I owe u quite a bit dude. May GOD relieve u og this pain & give back the hapiness tht u deserve. The solution is ::::

"If u find urself trapped, listen to sanity, because ur mind speaks thru the so-called sanity. Insanity is just ur heart's voice, always listen it, hear it out, but do not necessarily act on it. When ur hands freeze and eyes solidify listening to the "sane" u because the other voice is too string, then the other voice has become the voice of ur inuition. Then, and only then, give it a chance. Keep ur feet on the ground, and give it a chance, with 200% of urself. And take it, come what may, with a smile."