the samurai

Most things start with a confusion ..

U walk in a city unknown .. with confusion in d mind .. theres fear of gettin lost .. but in such efforts u get to knw evn the lonliest of streets . and it is then tht u can say with great pride " I have been here .. " .

That is how life is. Its a city .. where everyone has been. Yet how many of them can say .. I KNOW THIS CITY .. I KNOW EACH & EVRY STONE OF ITS FOUNDATION .. I HAVE SEEN IT GROWING OLD & MATURE .... I HAVE BEEN A PART OF IT .. DO I KNOW IT ?? [ m not sure is d answer ] .

Thats how life is .. a city unknown. Its not that we dont have explorers capable enough to discover such a capricious place .. we do have such people .. but the city has its angels & deamons who protect it from being discovered. One might have an illusion that he knows the city well .. that between destinations within it, he can find n ways to reach from one destination to the other. He might succeed once, twice or may be even thrice .... but one day he will be lost in this maze. Wondering which way lead to where. And he will end up saying .. this city is haunted .. its been condemned.

Thats how we behave. If we r succesful .. if we get all that we expected & wanted .. if we r (so called) happy .. then one says : ' I LIVED ' .. not knowing tht its all momental .. and that one cannot really live its life to the max. One can only try but one cannot. And on the other hand if we r in pain .. filled with grief .. and arent gettin wht we really expect & demand .. then one says : ' If its life than whts hell ? '

The NATURE around us is assumed to be supportive .. something that helps in our own evolution . But does it really do is. The NATURE is the ruler . Rulers as they always r .. they might support u .. they might inspire u .. they might even help u .. they might nourish u .. but the day they know that ur growing taller than THE RULER .. ur cutt down . The game of power . NO one wants to loose it .. not even the ruler. SO it might seem that nature supports u cause what we really see is the beauty around us .. not those hidden thorns .. which r not actually thorns .. they r AROOWS OF POISON .. aimed right at our a** .. so that the day we try to stand against it .. they are shooted out . Making us all go down .. powerless .. back to the one to be nurtured. We arent suposed to be the nurturer. We r the one to be nurtured. SO its all the nature's ball game. The day it realises that ur too happy than ur supposed to be .. it sets up conditions such that u jst cant exceed the volumes of happiness .. and if u dare .. u r thrown in to the well of darkness .. with lonliness being your only companion.

Its not that one cant be happy .. one can be .. for days .. weeks .. or may be even years .. but he/she cannot be happy his/her whole life. So on an average if ones hapiness quotient is more than the pain quotient .. he/she is said to have lived a HAPPY LIFE .. & vice - versa. And to tell u the truth .. its not in ur hands . It might seem so .. but its not.

But then we r born warriors .. arent we ?? All our life we learn to fight. We learn to face abuses, we learn to face people when all the worlds against us , we learn to protect our values & rituals , we learn to lend a hand to the one in pain , we learn not to give pain , we learn to fight darkness [ for that one might even risk to enter in to it ] . So all our life we learn to fight. The armour may change , the strategies may differ , it might be against different enemies but the BATTLE FIELD remains the same. The battles field is LIFE .

And thts what i mean by saying : theres fear of gettin lost .. but in such efforts u get to knw evn the lonliest of streets.

We might not win the battle ever , no body might win it .. it might continue for centuries & for generations .. but that battle .. that defeat teaches us a lot. Not to get a better armour next time .. rather it teaches us .. how to be at peace even when the battle is on. And i guess that is what made individuals like GAUTAM BUDDHA, VIVEKANANAD & lots more, great. They were warriors who learned how to be at peace even fighting a war. And the struggle continues.

And the more we try .. the more we learn.

SO dont be afraid .. jst try to fight .. jst try to be at peace while fighting .. let ur breath out .. calm down .. take you time .. concentrate & FOCUS ..... there comes a sword .. block the attack .. gud .. concentrate & FOCUS ...

And if u survive .. u will say : " I have been here .. to this place .. to this city "

PS :: Its jst a thought .. only a thought. :D