fine .. go far away ....

Look here, dont you turn your face away
talk to me, please listen to me today
a storm came by, disrupted the bay
now its all filth, all dirt here that lay

the beach is lonely, waves running far
the boats are lost, struggling to find their way
the wind is unfamiliar, not a word the birds say
listen to me. hear me , make me happy & gay

you want to give me a break, i dont want one
you want me to lie down & relax, i dont need this hoax
why r u turning in to a wave, me in to the beach
pretending to be close, touching, still a turbulence abase

Gods hear thy pray, you hear mine
give me nothing, all i need is time
its neither kiddish nor stupid
answer me, question me, but hear me today ..

the house is now empty, so is the terrace
no ones watching the planes flying over
you r far far away, but u hear the engines bluster
dont look for the planes, but do hear them flying away

the night is still, its a black out, atleast hear me today ...

I am a little hazy, quite inappropriate
your the wave, the unbouded, uncontrolled
you are allowed to leave, ur allowed to break away
I will still be here, the sand, where once ur feet played with clay ..

!(Coming Back to life .. )

Where were you when I was burned and broken

While the days slipped by from my window watching

Where were you when I was hurt and helpless

Because the things you say and the things you do surround
me

While you were hanging yourself on someone else's words

Dying to believe in what you heard

I was staring straight into the shining sun



Lost in thought and lost in time

While the seeds of lifeand the seeds of change were planted

Outside the rain fell dark and slow

While I pondered on this dangerous but irresistible pastime

I took a heavenly ride through our silence

I knew the moment had arrived

For killing the past and coming back to life



I took a heavenly ride through our silence

I knew the waiting had begun

And headed straight..into the shining sun

from novices to masters . ..

I clearly remember I was in class 3 . Very small indeed. As innocent and as shy as a new born baby. And why wont I be, it was a new city, a new school, new people. I was in a city where I hardly knew people, I hardly had any friends, the streets were quite unknown, the air was new & so was its pollution. New were the moves that i needed to learn so as to survive. EVerything was new .. very very different.

So as I said I was as innocent as the morning dew [ :D ] .. it was exam time. I was done with all the regular subjects except for all the grade ones. It was ART the followong day. Dont know what occured to my mind, and i started drawing some scenery. I was fairly good at drawing, I mean not in terms of imagination, but ya if u give me some picture I could draw it pretty nicely, ya u can say I could copy ART well enough. I drew the scenery, showed it to mom & dad nd got some smile bringing appreciation. suddenly the devil starts it work, I grabbed the rubber and rubbed it all, with a light hand , the lines were still visible .. but it was still a white paper. I HAD DECIDED TO CHEAT ...

The following day the paper commenced, we were supposed to draw nething we wished for, what better could you expect from a 3 rd standard boy. I took out my drawing book, pretending I had all new pages in it. I started darkening the visible lines, I could have escaped easily ... but as they say .. the thief always leaves a mark .. donno out of terror of being caught or whatever i tried to hide what i was drawing, the teacher obviously caught attention of my tensed face . She suddenly came to my seat and asked me to show my book .. I WAS CAUGHT FOR SURE ...

After a minute I was standing right next to the blacboard facing the whole class. All embarrassed . From then on, I promised myself not to cheat. It was shame , you dont cheat in english,hindi, science .. not even in maths cause i was quite good at it , and ur defamed just because you tried copying some stupid art . All my time in the school till 10 th I hardly cheated . Making chits and all was far far away .

Now I am a big dude .. I am in college . rite ? I got all guts. Now we even cheat in maths, though everyone could have done it by themselves my aint answer matching necesaary, obviously it is . You are never sure as u grow old .. kids are more sure I guess . No professor scares us now, they are just a laugh away. We take precautions, we can rely completely on others for passing. WE ARE BIG TIME MUGGERS & A HUGE TIME COPY MASTERS ...

Its been a journey from a novice to a master ..

But still all the events in your lofe leave a mark .. so theres still a fear .. not the fear of being caught .. its the fear of being embarassed . We cheat , we copy .. it hardly matters ..

All that is important is not cheating on yourself & others .. life is more important .. we are here to learn .. to learn to live .. whtever comes our way .. rite !!

So, I aint a master .. m sure i wont be .. but wont even give up ..

a less learned life

Disclaimer :: This ones going to be long .

Every single event of your life leaves you a lesson. Its all about mining the appropriate result out of all happenings, so as to apply it and try to imrpove ur life accordingly .. all we crave for is a better life evry single day . The sun has to be brighter but ya ( less HOt ) at the same time .

we get in to the fuss of putting events in to the good or bad category. Was this gud that i did .. was it bad that happened .. nd why did it even happen anyway, and is it only me whos gone through this .. why does this happen only with me .. damn .. blah blah blah nd what not .

Lets try lift ourselves above the categorisation of good and bad . Rather than cribbing lets just face the truth for the first time . Lets be ready to learn, not to avoid the situations that we crashed in to , rather to be prepared to handle them better. Lets not categorise cause nothing is good and nothing is bad . Its all perspective. Its all personal. And the point we will get over crying on good or bad may be we could realise the hidden message that was meant to be conveyed to us , though recognising and deciphering it was left to us .

The certain events that you go through in your life, admit it , they were meant to happen the way they did, supported by other events though. Now you decide not to do that again, so was it bad ? no it wasnt bad , it was wrong. In order to be better we tend not to do the wrong things .. cause sometimes you even ought to do some bad things in order to make way for some good things to happen . Complex and confusing as it may sound, but simply put, what you avoid doing is not actually bad , its wrong ( as per ur prespective only ) .. so lets not consider bad as bad .. nd lets avoid the wrong.

Learned philosophy 1 ::

Lets save our concern. Lets give importance and care only those that deserve. Its not meant to be wasted, dont hurry. Time is meant to be taken .


One craves to be admired. He's hungry for perfection cause no one in this world is perfect, and its a big deal even if he/she makes the closest to it. But arent we loosing our own identity in identifying our own self. Complicated again ( sry cant help it ). I mean stop starving, go have a great lunch. The feast will rejuvinate you. Simply, dont try too hard, forget perfection. Just take a deep breath and try to identify what exactly is this lump of flesh & fat walking lazily around the globe. Try wondering , Am i even walking , and if its not me than what exactly it is . Huh .. ofcoure ur walking man .. so what if the earth also spins on its axis , your ground is still stable. Identify your ground, put your feet, feel the weight ( not ur weight .. ofcourse your too heavy .. fatty ) feel the weight of your breath, feel the motion , feel the change in perception from eye to eye, feel the exhuberence inside , feel the confidence within .

Learned Philosophy 2 ::

Lets not try too hard, cause wars are not won by labour they are won by leaders .. the one with brains. Lets apply our brains ofcourse.

Learned Philosophy 3 ::

Lets apply our brains, lets think . But not from outside, think inside, feel inside. Just try loving urself, even if you are a pile of shit .. so what .. you still smell differently. Lets love ourselves .

We are crazy. And arent we proud of it. Or is this craziness a pretention. Damn . Why do we have to pretend anyway ?? I just hate that . Lets pretend to be non-pretending. Lets talk truth here. Ok fine we are crazy.

Learned philosophy 4 ::

We are crazy. wht ?? huh ?? ohk fine. Its only me . whatever .

THE BOY IS HAPPY AFTER LEARNING THAT LIFE HAS BUMPS .. THATS WHEN HE STARTS WALKING.