9 point someONE ..

[ The latest read being 5 POINT SOMEONE . The narrator aimed the reader to feel tht hes reading his own story & for sure he got me. It seemed to be so me in the book .... the only differences being

1. I m not an IITian
2. I m not a 5 pointer
3. I dont have a girl ]

This is a story of a 9 pointer [ grr does it matter ]. Got an admission in an institute which was then striving to be a premiere institute of India [ and to the best of my badluck & damngood indian politics .... it left tht strive & no more longs to rise to the apitome of technology & management ]. People used to ask why did he choose this institute .... wht the heck .... it was never chosen .. we never have a choice here in India .. U only get it .. nothing choosing. All u need to do is work ur ass out & come up with some good AIR .... but hard work was nevr there in my dictionary.

And therefore it does signify tht to be a 9 pointer does not mean tht u need to work ur asses out. Atleast not here. MAy not in any other institute leaving the IITs. Rather i wud say tht its MUGGING every where. The only difference is tht in IITs they do it most of the times .. and here its ocassional .... rather the examination night only. So all i have managed through 9 is by being in to best of my senses .... mug up the right things .... vommitting them right there .... and may be lots of luck.

But then have i been such a "9 point JERK someone" all my life .... definitely not .... i almost always wished to be the TOPPER one(rather the CREEPY ones). But this desire was never backed up by HARDWORK. MAy be i never believed in hardwork & may be even today i dont believe in it ....I know i havent done one till now. I ditched my parents dream of seeing me in to IITs. Umm wasted most of their efforts & hardwork. And all i cud manage to keep them happy & a bit satisfied is a 9 point something.

As an individual .. I wish to be a STUD .... dont knw wht this word actually means. But all i understand frm this is being nearly PERFECT. ATleast being at the Top of ur world & ur Dreams. If i see FEDERER .. i wish i was a GOOD tennis player ..[ i nevr feel being a CRICETER .. they SUCK ]. If i see TRENDZ [ a fashion channel of ZEE ] i wish to be a FASHION DESIGNER ... and this feeling is stronger. When i write i wish to be a NOVELIST. Presently i m in to Engineering but i have never dreamt to be a good engineer. Rather i never came to a conclusion on wht a GOOD ENGINEER is all abt.

I long for a girl to be in my life .... to be a part of it .. but people think tht i m a so called DEVDAS [ and i hate being called so ]. I wish to undrstand loVe. But all went in vain .. and there r very less expectations now.

So i guess till now life has not been worth it .. except from the fact tht i belong to a very LOVABLE family .. i have the BEST parents .... considerate BROTHERS .... and a hell lota caring friends around me. Isnt it enough ?? Or am i demanding too much ??

So being a 9 point someone is easy but not coooool enough. U have better things in life to care for. As RYAN [ one of the characters ] says it :: " Life is much more then this system and its foolish policies. Its the AGE of fun & enjoyment. Its the AGE to live, love & make life feel worth LIVED " [ lol ... the quote is mine .. i just used the character name .. though he conveys a similar idea ].


SOme excerpts from the book :::::

There is a reason wht they say men shoud not cry, they just look so, like , ugly.

There r times in life u wish dinosaurs werent extinct and cud be whistled to come & gulp u down

Its hard to say NO to pretty girls or to ice-cream.

Girls loVe laughing at their own jokes.

It is funny how ur mind comes up with questions.DAmn it, it is up to the mind to come out with the answers, so why cant it just keep its doubts to itself ?

few Drops of vodkA ...

Few drops of Vodka .... and the pain is all gone .. evrything forgotten .. into a new world I go. I knw friends ur worried but I havent got addicted to it & for sure i wont. But sometimes u r bound to cross the boundaries u set for urselves .... its called moving against ur WILL. And i m happy i did i once in my life.


Its all so tasteless .. rather it has a very bad taste .. then why the hell people drink it . Maybe becuase of the relief it gives.

Why the hell r people so misunderstanding. Or am i a fool of such sort tht i am not capable enough to have myself understood. Its all so confusing. I take an oath everyday tht i wont come to this goddamn internet again .. but cant help the addiction i m in to. And everyday all i end up in to is more pain & more confusion. The only thing tht has always been on my side has been this blog. It has always helped me pen down my feelings. To vomit it all out here. Be it good or bad.

ANUjs Dictum :::: Whenevr in pain, always write.

So people plzzz listen to the one who cares. Never let him down. Never give him a feeling tht hes not worth U [ though he may deserve better ]. Love him the same way as he Loves U. Be compassionate & caring [ try to be less human ].

Cause if one day he leaves .... then may be u wud loose something tht u wont even be able to regret upon.Ciao.

the heaRt

.

If i cud melt ur heart
We wud nevr be apart ....

ummm wht does melting ones heart means .... May be heating up a bit with the flame of feeling. But isnt this very philosophical. So whts practical.

WEll i never understood what actaually a HEART is. Is it a mere organ ( rather the most imp. one ) tht pumps in & out the blood tht circulates in a body. And does it have anymore importance ( being it a lifeline is worth an importance but here i m lookin for something more .... something at a higher level ).

I m a human, thus a social animal & with no exceptions all tht i have learned through my 20 years of life is based on experiences of others (unfortunately even they r human) and certain things written in books tht were either believed or proved by certain inquisitive individuals. So my repository of knowledge (which is highly limited) is based on a basic assumption of believing them all.

And believing this as i have heard & read ... they say tht " HEART is not a mere pumping organ .. its something u can talk to". ummm to put it more literally they say tht humans have two modes of responding to situations :: Either listen to ur MIND or ur HEART. And i firmly believe the first one cause i have heard my mind speak. But the second one is a bit doubty. Doubty why ?? Cause i have always heard two voices ... though one is very weak & the other very strong.

Now the crux here is tht how does one figure out which one came from where. Which ones "THE MIND THOUGHT" which they say is always practical ... and which one " THE VOICE OF UR HEART " which they term to be say fictional, non practical & quite troublesome. Everysingle day i read my horoscope ... and it says "TODAY IS THE DAY TO LISTEN TO THE VOICE OF UR HEART" ..... and as a firm superstitious ... whenevr a complex situation arises .... i do hear two voices .. but nevr figured out which ones the heart one. SO as always it left me confused.

Now even if this is cleared .. and i knw this art of talking to ur heart (A place where they say GOD resides).... but then wht does this MELTING ONES HEART mean. DOes it mean when ur able to establish a connection btw two different hearts ....

Its not like i dont knw the answers to these questions. I knw them very well (any queries invited) cause i have exrerienced these things. I have felt something. I knw whtevr GOOD i dream has been there sometime in my heart. And i knw tht whenevr i have HICCkUPS theres someone remembering me.

Sorry dont knw where i started frm and where have i ended up.

All i knw is tht heart gives u something. But u have only two options :: Either loVe or pAin .... and the fun is tht u wont be given a chance to choose .... And moreover theres no criterion. Its all unknown. But whtevr u get (as a consequence of FATE) it wont evr let u feel satisfied. And u will be a sLave .... demanding for more ..

It will lead you to the ocean of emotions on a seemigly safe boat .. but u wont be able to survive the storms .... and it wont leave u in the mist .. but will sail u through to an Island .. very secluded .... all lonely. And then theres no escape .... And then u wud think .. Why did I listened to it .. And by the way WHOM did I listened to ..... was it my mind or the heart. And u hear those two voices again ....

Everywhere around me i see pain
And i thought i was most unlucky ....

huM tuM

hum :: (whistling) ... Ladki kyun na jane kyun ... hmmm
tum :: Hey . Hi . Kya kar rahe ho ? ( with a sweet smile )
hum :: Sa Re Ga Ma se call ayi hai. Practice kar raha hoon. ( overlooks ... attitude)
tum :: huh !! Shakal dekhi hai ayine main ...
hum :: Kyun face dekh ke gana gaya jata hai kya ?? Aur viase main roj to aina dekhta hi hoon !! ( runs fingers through his hair )..
tum :: Haan haan pata hai. Pata nahin kaya milta hai in lambe gande baloon se. Tum bal kata kyun nahin lete ...... ( a frown )
hum :: Are tujhe kya pata fashion kya hota hai. Rehne de tu nahin samjhegi .... ( gives a mocking look ) ..
tum :: (whistling) haan bas ek tum hi to ho jo bachpan se fashion karta aa raha hai. To tu fashion designer kyun nahin ban jata.
hum :: I guess ur right. Vaise bhi main engineering se bahut BORE ho chuka hoon. Teachers ko padhana nahin ata aur mujhe kuch samajh main nahin ata. Pata nahin tum ladkiyan kaise teachers ke peeche padi rehti ho. Hamesha marks ke liye rona dhona .... Give me a break yaaar ..... ( again a mocking look)
tum :: Shut up ok .. tum ladke koi kam ho kya ..Tumhe koi kam to hota nahin hai. Bas koi lady teacher ayi nahin aur natak shuru ( THE boys mouth opens a bit .. a *sigh* ) ... are muh to band karo .... U all r so sick !!
hum :: Are tumhe kya pata life kise kehte hain. Jevan jine ka matlab sirf saturday, sundays ko shopping karna aur baki din college main boring classes attend karna .... aur lecture dena hi nahin hota miss ..... wht do u knw abt enjoying life !!
tum :: Acha .... aur tum boys to bada jante ho life enjoy karna hain .... life ka matlab hai ladkiyon ke peeche ghumna ... roz nayi ladki ko coffee ke liye poochna ..and if she refuses .. to " NOT MY TYPES " bol ke overlook karna .... bas yahi life hoti hai na ...
hum :: Shut up okkk . AUr haan yaad rakhna main kabhi ladkiyon ke peeche nahin bhagta ... Wo to ladkiyan hi ... ( Raises his collar ..)
tum :: Haan haan vo to mujhe pata hai. paanch bar to main hi paanch alag ladkiyon ko tere LOVE letters de chuki hoon. Mere ko mat bana ok .. o knw u better than even urselves ... ( tht attitude of GOTTYA ... )
hum :: Are vo to mere doston ne insist kiya ... varna main aur ladki ... no way ... Main in sab musibatoon main nahin padta ...
tum :: Acha to ab hum musibaat bhi ho gaye .. Ab agli bar ana tu NOTES mangne ... phir batati hoon ki musibaat kise kehte hain ..
hum :: Hey hey main to mazaak kar raha tha dear ... u knw na I love u a lot .... ek tu hi to hai jo .... ( The girl makes a move ..)
tum :: Chal main to chali class ... ( the boy frowns inside .. how sick of her ... )
hum :: Are ruk na .... Are sun to .... Are sun na plzzzz

To be continued for sure ........

PS :: Written while burning midnight oil .. so dont be surprised over this INSANITY !! And its not one of those talks with any girl of my college. Its all a creation of a creepy mind & an insane heart.

Closing note ::

The Road

There was a class this evening. On my way to class i walked on to tht same road which i had been walking on since last 2 years. Most of the mornings .... sometimes in the evenings & ofcourse every sunday ....... the same road travelled for 2 long years of my life. The years of my life when i gained some maturity & an infinite amount of INSANITY .

But this evening & may be all the forthcoming mornings & evenings & sundays .... I never will be able to know this road. It seems to be so familiar yet so unknown. Since years this road had been walked by thousands of people .. some sad .. some happy .... some alone & by some coulples ...... and even if they would have ever tried to discover this road ( As a test of there insaNity ofcourse ).... all would have had a different perception .... a different knowledge. Everyone would have known it a different way. And if i assume that most of them were really great (insaNe) enough to have known this road ........ then either this road has so much in it which makes everyone feel differently ..... made everyone know it differently ....... or may be nobody ever came to know it. May be this was as unknown to them as it has been to me since last few years.

And if thats true .... ie nobody really knew the ROAD ... shud i be happy that nobody is different from me .... rather i m the same as they r ... a SHEEP ...(My gosh ... this is a sheepish society). But did i ever wished it that way. Did i ever wanted to be a SHEEEP . Definitely not. I have always wished to stand my ground (I have KSHYTRIYA blood running in my veins). I wished not to be a hell lot different .... but i do wish a recognition which is worth it.

So i have always strived to know this road .... to travel it .... to walk it with all recognition.

How would have this road felt since years .... being ruined by lots of known faces .. and yet everytime they walk it again .. its all so different ... a different attitude .... a different gesture .... a different recognition. But still this road has something to cherish .... to behold ...it has the memories.

But think of a road tht is unwalked ... never used ... all alone . It has no memories .. It never gave anyone any recognition. Its all new, fresh & lonely.

But then every thing has DAY ..and NIGHT as well.

I have always wished to walk this road all through. To reach the end of it .... and then say proudly " I knew this road .. I have walked it once".
This road of LOVE !!

saNity vS insaNity

insaNity :: Hey I loVe her !!
saNity :: Wht the heck .... do u even knw wht loVe is ??
insaNity :: May be i dont .. but i do feel someThing. something nice & close.
saNity :: and wud u dare to tell tht somethinG plZZZ ..
insaNity :: weLL its a feeling tht has nevr been there or may i say ..which has always been there. Its abt feeling someone close to ur heart !!
saNity :: hahaha ... cLose to ur heart . Stupid SHE doesnt even recognise u. U were nevr cLose to her .... and may be u wont evr be close . and u call this SOMTHNG HAPPENING ..... it's so insane .....
insaNity :: Hey i nevr put those constraints of recognition. I knw the things r screwed up but i will find my way ...
saNity :: lOOk whos talkin !! U havent ever been able to find urselves .. how the hell r u supposed to find ways .... to an impossible ... rather a non existant destination ??
insaNity :: ok if its not loVe ..... wht the heLL is it ??
saNity :: May be attraction ....
insaNity :: attractions never last 5 long years ..
saNity :: thEn its insanity ...
insaNity :: But then there has to be a cause for this insanity .... isnt it ? and the cause is SHE .. so isnt it loVe .. to be waiting for a single person for 5 long years .... remembering her all day & night .... and that too when u dont even have memories of being together .. All i remember is a pretty & innocent face ..... and if it was not loVe then wht the hell in this world has let me remember HER .. Have i been stupid .. or have i been worse ..
saNity :: well dont knw ......
insaNity :: hahaha ... now thts insanity .. tHe very fact of not knowing is inSanity dear .... and if even saNity is not supposed to knw then who is ?? Am i trapped here ... unanswered ... Determined yet confused !!

Hey !! PHOENIX .... a very considerate reader gave me a solution. i read his blog & found tht hes in pain too. May be a pain bitter then mine (or theres no pain for me .... its just an illusion .... but i have nevr admitted to be an illusion .. rather i m not ready to take it tht way). I owe u quite a bit dude. May GOD relieve u og this pain & give back the hapiness tht u deserve. The solution is ::::

"If u find urself trapped, listen to sanity, because ur mind speaks thru the so-called sanity. Insanity is just ur heart's voice, always listen it, hear it out, but do not necessarily act on it. When ur hands freeze and eyes solidify listening to the "sane" u because the other voice is too string, then the other voice has become the voice of ur inuition. Then, and only then, give it a chance. Keep ur feet on the ground, and give it a chance, with 200% of urself. And take it, come what may, with a smile."

Finally a Hope !!

Last few days of life have been quite Motivating. A mixture of self motivation & motivation from other parts of my life (ofcourse my friends). Well all this motivation has been there may be to resist a Change. A big one indeed.

Urs truly aNuj was moving towards a change. From a happy go creature to a maNiac deVdas. And obviously this is not acceptable to my friends ( GOSH !! how much they care ).And of time i have been realisisng this tht how imp it was to resist this change.

So friendz i m no more a deVdas ( though i m still a maNiac ....any crazy thing and u can turn up to me anytime .... i wont dissapoint ). Now the question wud be .... Wht happened to tht girl ......... lol ... SHE stays where SHE was .. my hEart ofcourse !! But this time loVe ( or whtevr they cal it .... infatuation .. attraction .. ) will be a poositiVe one. Very unconditional & motivating. May be this way i have a found a way of self motivation. Lets see how long it works.

Lol .. but the poems will keep coming. Sorry .... u will have to bear with it.

Well then if its not going to be SHE then wht am i goin to write abt. grrr ... Theres nothing else worth telling. The blogs r said to be INTERNET DIARIES ... but r they really ?? whtevr .... i use them to pen down my feelings.

September 18, 2005 :::::

The day .. or should i say midnite started with rupturing someone ASS .. well i didnt do it .. i was late ( and i m very considerate as well ). It was sandeeps Bday. Five minutes of gathering .... sometimes to celebrate & most of the times to satisfy the empty tummy .... as they have something or the other to eat.

But this life has its own fun. Came down after getting my part of the party done .... sat in front of the Pc .... lol ... i have been sitting here since years .... may be lifes. This is a hell lot of a prayer .... May be the god of IT ( i feel IT is on such a boom these days tht even GODS may feel the need of an IT department ) would be pleased ..... and thus grant me a Virus & Bug free platform called HEAVEN .

umm Its 3:24 .... morning 8:00 is a class .... a continous 5 hrs class .... lol ... lots of time to sleep. The techers a total geek .. knws a hell lota prigramming languages ..... uggh i hate this stuff. Craming up. And then lunch .... which i wont ever even dream to touch ... forget tasting it. Its been years since i had lunch. And then again a 3 hrs class.

Wow ..... wht a SUNDAY its gonna be. All fucked up. And then when i come back in the evenin ....a bit og BADDI .... and again ME & MY SUOLMATE computer. AAAHHH !! we make such a good pair. May be i should have fallen in loVe with it .... atleast we wud have been close.

Thts it for now. .. CIAO !!


So u just saw .... diary writing stuff .. isnt it boring. SO lets see wht has lifein store. Bubbly says it has much more to give !! So, presently i m enjoying this HOPE of being wht i have always been ...... SMILING ...

eNough !!

.



I know all you out there would have been scratching ur head out whenever u visited this blog. This " mAd iN loVe gEEk " has nothing else to write then his boring loVe poems ..... some times waiting ....sometimes crying .... most of the times behaving like a kId who didnt got his chocolatEs tht he always expected to get. But folks thts the way it is.

Umm but things shouldnt go this way .... if not for me then may be for u ( Aint i conSiderate ?? ).

Well u must be wondering ... did someone hit something on his head .. how come this change .... well read a few articles on happiness & then few enlightening posts on other blogs. ( But will this bring a change .... hahahaha .. a deVils laugh )

But its not tht i have always been the " Rotadu " types. I have been happy .... rather one of the most lively personality among friends ( Hey !! anuj .. was tht a jokE ?? ). But then this bUg called loVe .... grrr .. if it bites u .... either u r on the other side of the river .... happy & satisfied ........ or u drown !!

Well have i drowned or not would be a bad question to ask at this point of time !! But yes certainly there r things tht r not very pleasing but then if some of u have watched tht movie called " MOHABBATEIN " ...... srk says ::::

" When i fell in loVe .... i never demanded tht sHe would also fell in loVe with me .... Love signifies only to give .. not to expect returns .... its foundation is not kept on the promise of Equality of Returns "

( lol ... Somewht like tht ) .
So same here. But then i m a normal human being ..... i do have expectations. Expectations tht i feel when fulfilled, would make me happy. And its all so natural to expect.

I may have written these poems here so tht if anytime by LUCK ( grrrr ) she passes by this blog ...... sHe gets to knw abt someone who misses hEr .. someone who cares .... and that tht someone is me :: Anuj . But then should i expect .... dont knw.

And this very fact of not knowing ...... huRts !!

And then the fact tht sHe doesnt recognise me .... no repLies .... my increased desperation ( grr .. i hate it ) .... And being helpless ..... it all so hurTs ..
But then one of my friends once told me tht we r here on this planet to bear the pain . TO vitness agony & accept it as a teSt .... we r here to sUffer .. But wht r the benefits ........ a stupid HEAVEN ( Ughh .... let me go to hEll ).

So u see the pain is there & it will be there .... more poems will be coming .. more crying ........ amd may be a long wait.

Today u dont recognise me
Cause i have behaved like a fOOl
But tomorrow you may regret
Cause u will be the reason for me goin inSane !!

Today you may not fall for me
Cause I have never confessed
But tomorrow you may long
For the same loVe that made me Obssesed !!

All i have to say is
I wont be a fOOL
I wont go insaNe
If ur there to hear to my pain !!

i loVe u !!

PS :: I wont give up .... lol !!

Vanished Tears .... A faking sMilE ..

You have been .....
My dreams .. My Future .. My Hopes .. My Past .. my Friendliness .. My Exuberance ..My Zenith ...

U r in .,....
My Voice .. My Will .. My choice .. My Innocence .. My Trust .. My Security .. My Sencerity ..

You r there in ...
My Childhood .. My Joy .. My Love .. My Compassion .. My SelfImage .. My Faith ..

U will always be ...
My Empathy ... My Senxuality .. My Sensuality .. My Belonging .. My Desire .. My Friend ..

U r ....
My Religion .. My prayer .. My Laughter .. My Life .. My First Date ...

I wish u to be ....
My Sanity .. My ability ... My conscience .. My name ..

And U r ......
My Identity ..
My Smile ..
My All .........

And in this Mist when things r not going fine, against destiny & fate ..... I stand .. ERECT ..... UNMOVED ...... to face everything & anything tht comes my way. Today U may not recognise me ...... approve me ..... may be this DREAM wont come true ever .... May be there will be people who will be more loveable ...... But i stand my Ground to protect the SPACE U DESERVE in thy heart.

And there comes again tht FAKING SMILE ....... demanding the TEAR to vanish ....

The TEARs of hOpE vAniSh ...... in the rAin ..

A tear

Her thought crippled my mind
Her name caught my voice
And on to that faking Smile
Dropped a tear !!

The Tear fell deep down
In to the hands of destiny
Not knowing the day
when it could smile !!

I will Wait

.
SHE has been my passion .. SHE hs been in my emotions .. And I miss her a lot .... though SHE was never close but i never felt her to be far .... but now something seems to be parting frm me .... I need to be strong to hold on .... to wait ..




I was here
To bear the pain;
I have been here
To witness Agony;
I will always be here
To suffer !!

I was here
To be loved;
I have been here
To be adored ;
But now I wont be there
Longing for Love !!

All innocent
I stand stagnant
In this mist called life
Winds pass by and
There is just a blink !!

With no hopes
And all fear
I wish for someone
Who can rejuvinate
Thy thoughts !!

But there is
just a Wait
Wait and A wait !!

No response .....


PS :: The thoughts r in accordance with the picture outside and the feelings inside.

Want to know u Inside Out ... To hold u close & tight

SHE .... My only prayer to god .. the one i aspire for .. the one i wont forget ever ..




I wish for u ....... i long for u .... u make me go crazy ..... everything seems stagnant .. things seem to end and start ..... its like at the edge of life & death .. the edge of hell & heaven ...

ohhhh that pretty face .. those "make me drown" eyes ... tht innocent smile... ahhh those dimples .. tht childish voice .... those long dark hairs .... unorganised yet beautiful .

Those eyes I would always wish to follow .. peeping frm behind someone (her sister).. giving that very innocent look of " I m an angel, i dont belong here, the world is not the place where i dwell .... i will be there in your dreams ... u cant catch me .. " .......

That dimple smile .... on that pretty face .. lighting up your thoughts .. letting me knw there r things I havent got. Its like giving life to the one starving ..... the fragrance of a flower.

I long to run my finger through her hair ....to lend my shoulder when she feels sleepy .... to lie on her lap & talk for hours .... just make her sit right in front of me .....watch her for hours ,days , years .... a lifetime.

To hear ur dreams .. ur feelings .. ur wishes .. to feel ur love, ur aggression .
To have a fight & then feel bad .. then try to make u happy again ..... to make u laugh.

To hold u close & near. Tomake love to u & to be loved .
I want to SCREAM & SHOUT , i want to know u INSIDE OUT.


My dear SHE i wish to knw u inside out ....

A Missing Friend

* SIGh * I always wished for such a friend but " Pados Main koi ladki hi nahin thi :( " .... and even now everything stands the same ..... grrr ...thanx to nice things written in my destiny .... ugggghhhhh .. luckily The unluckiest man on earth.

Hey this is not a joke ... i m damn serious abt it friendz .... and ohhh these typical karan johar style bollywood dramas add up to my anxiety. Hey but is it really true .... does such a lucky couple really exists ...... and if it does My GOd i would pay any price to be one of those couples ....lol i m not desperate ....its just a wish .

It would be wow to have someone pretending not to give a damn abt me but in her heart she has all the feelings & despite her pretention i knw tht she cares & i love her the same way ( here LOVE does not mean only bf-gf ). I would do all the boyish mischiefs and she shows me tht attitude. Whenever in trouble she comes running to me ..... and i just tell her how a DUMBO she is.

I go to her running whenever i spot a new girl in the college ( lol ...how flirtatious of me ) .... ans she just overlooks it cause she doesnt want to share her part of love. She calls up in the morning to wake up a stupid .... shouting tht hes getting late for the classes .......

And then those never ending discussions abt either girls r DUMD or Boys r SMART ( lol ...sorry it should be whose better :: Boys or girls ).... and with no exceptions at the very night before exams i run on to her for notes & when i dont understand a damn word .... i reach her with all innocence on face & ask of help .... and very rudely she says " Come Over " ..... lol .... i knw she cares ....

On her bdays ( which i always forget to wish ) i never give her presents & quite contrary to this she is the first one to wish me ...( this one is a bit exaggerated though .. i m laways there for her & she knws thts the best gift for her )......

Then those days & nights when i would miss her like hell .... when she would be far ... but wont call cause of tht EGO ... ugghhhh .... and as soon as she returns she is tooo excited to tell me her experiences but i as usual overlook .....mot interested in crap ...

She talking abt Tulsi ( kyunki saas bhi kabhi bahu thi ) and I abt Rock ( WWE ) ....

But the boy is not tht bad in the story yaar .... When she has a fight at home .... she feels lonely .. i always make her laugh .. my shoulder is always there for her.... and tht hanky of mine which she sneezes in to & always returns without washing ....ugghhhh but I love it tht way ......

Me protecting her frm all sorts of onlookers ...... giving her treats even when i m broke .... giving a small little slap on her head whnever shes stupid .. hear to her when she sobbs .... not hearing her when shes angry ....... ..

And theres lots more tht the two has to & can give each other. And this love i tell u is untouched, uncomparable, everlasting & the purest ...... but everyone is not a lucky dog. lol .... i m not happy with it.

Oh god !! If this wish of mine ever comes true in any life ......
MY DIL WILL GO MMMMMMMMMM ..........

Download this song

Salaam|Namaste - My dil goes mmmm..

Ladka ::::

AAti hain woh aaise chal ke, jaise jannat mein rehti hain
Dekhti hain sabko aaise, jaise sabko woh sehti hain
Par gusse mein jab aaye, aur ankhein woh dikhlaye
Ladte ladte galti se muskaaye
My dil goes mmmmmm....4x

Ladki ::::

karti hu jab usse baatein, lagta hain sone wala hain
Soke jab jabbhi woh jaage, lagta hain rone wala hain
Par chupke se woh aaye, meri neend se mujhe jagaye
Le baahon mein aur khud hi gir jaaye
My dil goes mmmmmm....4x

Ladka ::::

Ha woh na na karti hain
Ha bada akadti hain
Ha thodi si ziddi hain
Ha akal se piddi hain
Jaate hain sab aaye, na aaye woh jaati hain
Tedhi in baaton se mujhko yeh satati hain
Har waqt se pehle aanaa sunn na na koi bahana
Par dekhna mera rasta rozana
My dil goes mmmmmm....4x

Ladki ::::

Ha picture mein rota hain
Ha khulle muh sota hain
Ha zara nalayak hain
Ha pitne ke layak hain
Jaane kya kehta hain jaane kya karta hain
Sofe pe chadhta hain pardo se ladta hain
Jab karne lage safaai samjho ke shaamat aayi
Fir thak ke jab leta hain angdaai
My dil goes mmmmmm....4x

Ha thodi alag si hain
Ha thodi galat si hain
Ha thoda alag sa hain
Ha thoda galat sa hain
Aaisi bhi hogi woh aaisa na socha tha
Aaisa hi hoga woh aaisa hi socha tha
kyo lagta hain yeh apna
Yeh sach hain ya hain sapna
Dar lagta hain kahi ho na jaaye jhuth
My dil goes mmmmmm.... 12x