ought to be brave ...

Is he brave ??
does he fear ??

what does one really intend to know from such questions ?

someone wants you to be brave .. you urself have those norms .. but what exactly do we mean by being brave !! does it mean wacking ppl around .. leaving them with bleading nose & broken ribs .... or is it protecting your loved ones, ur friends from all sorts of mishaps .. or is it going out of the boundaries just to help someone in need of help .... or is it .. living your own life fear-less-ly .. facing all kind of situations watevr way they may come & still standing erect .. not running away from your own guilts & mistakes .

and if one intends to be brave than one needs to define fear for himself ? cause fear does differ from individual to individual . for me fear might be fighting my own decisions .. and if this is my fear .. how the hell am i going to overcome .... probably its all about the ppl around ( which i already mentioned in the last post ) ....

so if I am scared of all of them out there .. how am i supposed to piss them off .
MAy be i am still to learn to yell out all the ' F ' words at the crowd .. & conclude it sayin " fuck you !! I dont give a damn .. " ... may be that might instil in me the feeling of teasing my own fear .. may be then i wont fear my own decisions .. may then they will be my decisions .. my very own decisions .

I aint gonna accept something just because u ( as in the crowd ) said it ... I aint gonna disbelieve just because you dont support my thoughts ... I aint gonna fuck around you just because you want me too .... its my life .. its my decision ... days of prematurity have been prolonged .. but now is the time to act my way . so probably this is a shout at my own self .. come on dude .. " BE A MAN " ...

come on dude .. " BE BRAVE " .. not because they ( as in the crowd ) would praise u .. they wud consider you a warrior ... but because someone wants you to be ..

probably i gotta encourage thyself quoting ::

Boy: The man you're fighting? He's the biggest man I've ever seen. I wouldn't want to fight him.

ACHILLES : THAT'S WHY NO ONE WILL REMEMBER YOUR NAME

the fear of tomorrow ..

Its pretty normal to have certain odds against you .. but when the evens rebel what is one supposed to do .

There are two kinds of life ( may be more .. but for this peace of writing i can only comment on two of them ) ..

1. you live like a warrior .. the odds are never a big deal .. people of such kind know how to tackle a situation when the evens also go against .. they know how to handle rebellions .

2. you live like an adjustment .. u hardly managed to keep up with the odds .. you have always feared them .. nd if u could ever wonder the evens going for a rebel .. its the worst possible nightmare ..

but what if one is caged .. he wants to be a warrior .. he wants to break all that comes in his way .. freedom is his destination .... his actions are his own .. but then nothing arouns seems supportive .. hes weakened by the thoughts of despair ..

i mean he wants to move on .. but every damn way he thinks of is close to impossible .. and its not only the hindrances that he fears .... its the people ..

He knows whichever way he picks to move on .. 100 eyes are looking over .. an upright gaze .. theres no way to escape .... he knows he is not answerable to any of them .. he never cared a damn about any of them .. but arent they weakening him .. its a slow poison .... eats out the strength .. instils the fear .. drop by drop .. second by second ..

wht is one supposed to do .. ?

The decisions that he took yesterday seem to be mistakes today .... but some thing inside knows that its not a mistake .. its a feeling that the ouside world has always tried to induce in humans ... the nature , the other humans .. they have always tried to instil that fear of considering decisions as mistakes ....

you run on a rugged road .. round 1 .. round 2 .. round 3 .... its hard to breathe .. the feets r sore .. d road seems never ending .... the courage dropping down every second .... I might have made it today just because i kept yelling to myself .. U CAN DO IT .. U CAN MAKE IT FORSURE .. probably a yell overcame the fear ... but wud this help tomorrow as well .. wud i be able to yell at the same pitch .. wud i be so determined ..

Its all the tomorrow fear .. wud i be the same warrior tomorrow .. whos gonna be by my side ?? nd even if someone is .. am i really gonna ask for help ?

But then we are born to fight ... who said winning is an obligation !!

tear me apart .. come on .. jst do it ...

dont you stop ohh .. ohh dear
its normal, just another tear
tear me apart, be ruthless
dont you spare me .. dont you ohh dear ...

clutch my sentiments hard , let them choke
come on .. go on .. ohh dear, its a mere joke
crush my feelings , go on .. press your boot hard
pull me from all sides, puhlzz .. tear me apart

kill my thoughts, push them in a carton
i am naive , set me to fire , let me ablaze
let the tears catch fire, let them escape (as steam)
catch my breath .. make it harder to breathe .. ohh baby

fill the room with smoke baby, let nothing be seen
throw me chained in d ocean ,quick , m pretty keen
Its been quite a time my baby , let all be killed
It wont ever be the same baby , we wont ever be skilled ....

tear me apart baby , leave me to bits ...
Gather me up , dont throw me in the BIN ...


PS :: dontya run ur mind towards the naughty side .. its nothing abt tht .... try to understand d real meaning .

once u said u care ..

With my eyes closed
my heart searching for solace
I twist & turn on my bed
As if thats not my place

someone teasing me in dream
reaching close & than running far
helpless !! I could only scream
still no ones there to read that scar

I wonder why did i chose pain
When I knew all wud go in vain
Its just like a window pane
one can see through, yet its unknown !!

you lend me just a finger
standing on the edge , left unsure
should I hold ur hand & linger
Or should I let go & fall obscure ....

help me baby, am in dispair
help me baby , help me .. once u said u care .....