hum tum - 2

Hey u must have read huM tuM . Well that might have sounded creepy and stupid .. but i loved doing it. So Its time for part 2. ANd this is the time .... hum tum ke beech PYAAR badhane ka .... so wht even this post might sound stupid .. but aint the so called " LOVE - PYAAR " supid and creepy.




So here we have very insane HUM ... and not so sane TUM ..

hum :: (whistling) ... Ladki kyun na jane kyun ... hmmm
tum :: tum hamesha bas ye gana hi kyun gate rehte ho. Kya tumhe ladkiyon se itni nafrat hai. Kya tum mujhse bhi itni nafrat karte ho ?? bolo bolo .. tell tell ...
hum :: ladkiyan .. aur nafrat .. no way .. they r so loveable .... main kya koi bhi unse nafrat nahin kar sakta ... [ tht naughty SAIF smile ]
tum :: sacchi ?? tum sach bol rahe ho na
hum :: hahaha .. maine aaj tak sach bola hai jo aaj boloonga .. hahaha tum bhi poori buddhu ho .. are tum sari ladkiya hi buddhu hoti ho .. bas kuch impressive bola nahin .. and bas blush karne lag jati ho .. DUMBO !!
tum :: huh !! Shut up .. [ tries to ignore ]
hum :: hahahaha look at ur face .... hahahaha ....
tum :: jyada smart mat bano ok .... agar hum ladkiyan na hoti to tum ladke kisske samne rote .. kisse apni baatein share karte .. jab bhi koi problm hoti hai .... chale ate to face latka kar .... itni hi nafrat karte ho .. to why do u approach me evrytime
hum :: are mitr .. tum to naraaz ho gayi. Aur haan i m a boy .. we never cry okk [ fingers crossed ] .. aur i approach u cause tu to meri dost hai na ...
tum :: bas bas jane do .. kab tak main ye sab karti rahongi .. main tang aa chuki hoon is dosti se .. jab ladkiyan ghumani aur patani ho ... to meri yaad ati hai .. kya milta hai tumhe inn " HIP HOP " ladkiyon se haan .... restaurants ka lamba chauda bill .. gifts ki list ... and dher sare nakhre .. ab main bhi baat nahin karoongi .... agli bar ana to 500 rs le ke ana ... i m opening a consultancy firm [ huh attitude ]
hum :: hey kya hua mitr .... why r u reacting like this .. mujhe kuch jalne ki boo aa rahi hai ....
tum :: jaloon aur main .... amin kyun jalne lagi .. tum chahe jo bhi karo .... aur ghumo .. khub money barbad karo .. smoke & drnk with them .. mujhe kya farak padta hai ....
hum :: hey come on yaar .. u knw na .. main to un ladkiyon ko bahv hi nahin deta .. vo to vo hi mere peeche padi rehti hain .. ab dekho na .. yesterday rashmi ne mujhe khud phone kiya .. and we r goin on a dte tonight [ again tht naughty smile ]
tum :: uuuu.... how mean of u .... kal tune hi mujhse rashmi ko phone karvaya tha na .. u knw i said almost 15 lies to her .... ur spoiling all good deeds tht i do .. and uske baad bhi u call me DUMBO .... dont even listen to me .... no chocolates for me ... bahut gande ho tum ....
hum :: are to usme kya galat hai .... whts wrong in calling a dumbo a dumbo dear .... face the truth dudette .... [ laughs ]
tum :: acha .... u come next time ... tab batati hoon ..
hum :: hey come on ... acha theek hai .. i wont go with all those girls .... wont tease u [ fingers crossed ] ... hey ... ek kam karte hain na ..... wud u go on a date with me ...
tum :: hahahaha .. mujhe kya kisi pagal doggy ne kata hai .. date .. and with u .... u knw na .. i dont like dates ..
hum :: hey thts not fare haan .... tu mujhe kisi aur ke saath bhi nahi jane deti .. and khud bhi nahin chalti .... whts with u haan [ frowns a bit .. an overreaction ]
tum :: [ a tear runs down the cheek ] tum nahin samjhoge .. tum sab ek jaise ho .... [ leaves ]
hum :: are wht the heck yaar .... sun na ... sun to ...

And they move out in opposite directions. tum reaches her home .. and tht typical filmi drama [ though serious ] .. she runs .. and falls on her bed .. catching the pillow ... and trying to submerge in it .. trying to hide .. all in tears .. the felings erupted today ...

Hum reaches his friends place as usual [ home is not one of the places where he dwells ] .. for him it was usual .. but today it was quite different .. the one person who used to give him tissue papers during those SENTI + MENTAL movies .. had cuased a tear to his eyes. He wasnt able to figure out a way. He had never thought abt her tht way .... or had he but never tried to put it to picture .... [ fingers crossed ]

And all he manages to say is :: " Main kehta tha na .... ek ladka ladki kabhi DOST nahin ho sakte [ a frown ]" ....

TO be continued for sure ....... [ ye ek lambi kahani hai ]

PS :: hey hey i knw ... there was no pyaar vyaar in this .. but it has started .... TUM has had enough of him .. and HUM is all confused right now .. and as was said in the movie " KAL HO NA HO " .... now he will run afte the girl to knw tht why is he confused .. [ i knw thoda ulta ho gaya .. par kabhi ladkiyon ko bhi to confess karne do na yaar ] . aur haan again it wasnt any of my personal experiences .. lol .. if it wud have happened i wud have been a happier lad .... its all a mind game ... and next one wud be total heart game ;)

someone very very SPECIAL !!

A baby asked God, "They tell me you are sending me to earth tomorrow, but how am I going to live there being so small and helpless?"

"Your angel will be waiting for you and will take care of you."

The child further inquired, "But tell me, here in heaven I don't have to do anything but sing and smile to be happy."

God said, "Your angel will sing for you and will also smile for you. And you will feel your angel's love and be very happy."

Again the child asked, "And how am I going to be able to understand when people talk to me if I don't know the language?"

God said, "Your angel will tell you the most beautiful and sweet words you will ever hear, and with much patience and care, your angel will teach you how to speak."

"And what am I going to do when I want to talk to you?"

God said, "Your angel will place your hands together and will teach you how to pray."

"Who will protect me?"

God said, "Your angel will defend you even if it means risking it's life."

"But I will always be sad because I will not see you anymore."

God said, "Your angel will always talk to you about Me and will teach you the way to come back to Me, even though I will always be next to you."

At that moment there was much peace in Heaven, but voices from Earth could be heard and the child hurriedly asked, "God, if I am to leave now, please tell me my angel's name."

"You will simply call her, 'Mom.'"

Love u mummy ....[ One of my friends says the best word to use is MAA .. but does the name really matter here ].

Ps ::: Other than the last line .. others r TAPAU from some place .... but its the last line tht means a lot & is imp. Hey and this blog does deserve such kind of nice stuff .. so posted it here .

sweet November

23 rd october .... Novembers approaching .. and so is something else !!

Since last 2 days .. watched the movie Sweet November 3 times almost in a row .... i mean 3 times completely .... ummm listened to its songs ..hundreds of time .. watched those SENTI + MENTAL scenes [ actually they r called loVe scenes ] again 100 times .... and for the first time it wasnt boring .. rather i wanted to watch it again & again [ though it caused a headache .. u know wht let me give u a tip :::: " Nevr watch those SENTI + MENTAL scenes again & again .. cause it wud stuff ur head with such intense feelings .. the ones you can hardly handle .. and u end up with a FEELINGS FETCHED headache" ... and it hurts ... and no balms or sprays work ].

Well i wont tell u the story .. its a nice movie .. so if u can get the movie [ i guess even buying a 200 rs dvd is worth enough ] .. just get it & watch it .. i dont want to RUIN it by telling u the story. Well most of u .. who wud have watched it wud argue tht whts the big deal ..... its another sad love story ... nothing new .... whtever senor .. its me .. i like it . But one things clear :: My god these women r damn crazy abt these DISH WASHERS .... uuughhhhh ...

hmm so novembers coming .... and i know it wud be equally sweeter .. it has alwayz been .. theres something special abt it [ u get a chocolate for guessing ;)]. I feel something new is entering into my life .... going through a change ... dont know whether its positive or not. And it wud be illuminated by candles & deepaks .. and celebrated with a BLAST !!

Ahhhh November ...

The cool breeze touches u to ur bones .... and u try to hold ur body tight into ur own arms .. giving warmth ..try to be as compact & fitting as possible. A season during which even skinny people look all puffed up. Stylish jackets .. flashy scrafs .. itching wool sweaters [ uuuuggghhhhh ] .. tht u can barely see anybodies skin. The mornings when its horrible to get out of the blankets ...gosh u hate all classes & profs at all those mornings [u hate them newayzzz ] . The season of "save water" plans !!
Dayzz when u wish to dig ur palms deeeeep in to ur pockets .. when u rub ur hands as if u have just spotted a tasty dish !!

Sweet november ....

The nights r lonnnng and the dayzz short .. The trees r wet in the morning ..with the games of passion the night played with them .... the flowers capriciously fresh with dew ..as if they cried all night .....even the birds wake up late ..as if they had a night out ....the sun blazing beautifully ..as if its the only source of warmth & light...... the grass is all wet & glowing ..as if it had put a hair gel ...... the air breathes .. with the fragrance of fog & chill ......the woods r prone to fire ..as if they knew they were meant to get burned ...... the roads r scantily crowded .. as if few of them strolling around were chucked from the sky ......the moon throws a smile from behind the clouds .. as if it was shy ...... when ur lips r screwed .. as if the season denied any kissing ......when people with high levels of attitude step on the mother earth .. as if scorpions were the best lot ......when things r rarely visible .. as if they were planning to hide since last season ......times when I wish to hang out ..as if i love to get freeze .....a season which lets the feeling of walking hand in hand grow stronger !!

Ahhhh ... this SWEET NOVEMBER .

my own ?

From dimmed lights of passion came a hand .... rolled the nob towards left .... water came running from the shower .. a free fall .. mildly warm it ran all over thy body .. all wet he stood underneath .. THE filth had been washed .. but wont it return ?? The body shivers .. the cool breeze trying to dismantle his thougths .. but they are untouched .. unwashed .. as if the stream of falling h20 over his head made him focus. And he continued thinking .... washed yet he was there .. wishing to get drowned. The same thoughts ..which when came crippled his mind .. the moment they came he became a WALKING CORPSE !!
They were haunting but they were his own .. so HE never denied there occurence. And all he wished at tht time was an escape .. not from his thoughts but from HIMSELF. He tried to run .. from them .. from himself .. and whever he tried .. they never even tried to follow him .. it was HE again who turned back to them ... cause they were his own .

The nob turned to the right. The h20 stream faded in to droplets .. the sound of running water died down to falling droplets ...Peace .. rather a deafening silence.

dayzzz passed .......

A cheerful looking dude .. normally dressed .. stands by the window of his room [ its the HOSTEL ] .. the window acquipped with two glass panes .. and one meshed wire pane. The closed window gave an odd look. At one side theres the crystal clear GLASS .. and the other side theres the mesh of pretty thin & scantily rusted wires. quite a contrast.

He gazed down the window .. at the BADMINTON court .. looking at people playing . How happy they seemed to be. Anytime anyone manages a powerful smash or a wicked drop .... theres that faint smile of confidence. The faces glowing with pleasure and the acts stuffed with excitement. But aint this momental ?? Would they be happy when they r out of that arena of smashes and drops. Would they be the same " powerful smashing & delicate dropping " dudes .... wont they be weak .. wont they be sensitive .. wont they wish to cry .. wont the excitement faint ??

Standing on the window he analysed them .. once through the glass pane ... and once through the complicated mesh .. and the same individuals seemed different. Both simple and comlicated. And so were his thoughts simple but complicated. They were simple to think but complicated to believe. But he never shoowed them off ... cause they were his own.

The " very FLASHY " halogens turned off ... the light fading slowly .. slowly in to darkness. And he was alone again. It was darkness outside .... and there wasnt any illumination inside either.

Again there was a slience. A mocking one. He laughed .. laughed .. laughed .... and a salty drop of H2O ran down his cheek. But he never regreted it .. cause it were his own.

And he perished in to the darkness of night. The other day he was the same individual .. "The happy go .. faked smile" ..

Days come and disappear in to darkness ... we dwell in the nights .. but the first ray of light steals it from us. We cherish things but dont really achieve them .. we regret things but they cant be escaped. But yet they r our own. They r a part of our " On the edge of darkness & light " life. They are part of an individuals 60 years [ on an average ]of experience of pain, hapiness, love, hatred , of being ditched and of ditching others. All revolve around him. They r all his own.

So, to CUT THE CRAP i wud say :::: The love tht i missed, the pain tht i gave others & got equal returns .... the simple but complicated thoughts .. the smile & the tears .... the long dirty hairs .. the boring & sultry days .. the lonliness & state of being confused and unanswerable ... the unachieved goals .. the newly planned aspirations & aims .... the capricious fate and a fickle mind ..... they r all my own. And wht to say .... i dont know whether i deserved them all or not .. or whether i deserved better is not the question here ....

the question here is ::
Why was I the one chosen to own all these .. & ONLY these ??

Its a human nature to condemn thyself. And i do condemn ... [ though at times i feel i m lucky ]

The alchemist says :: " one is loved because one is loved " .... i guess its the same here .... anuj says :: " one owns wht he owns because he owns it" .... theres no question of deserving things here. Because if in anyway it was the question of deserving .. it shud have been calculated on the basis of present life deeds [ i do believe in more than one life ] ... but they say : " whatever happens with us is already planned & written somewhere [ lol ... wht a database ]" .... so its all abt allocation .. which is done way before u even understand how to breathe. So u dont have a choice .... u can just add on .

whatever ..... the crux is .. I never wanted my life the way it is today [ obviously demanding idealism .. aint i human ? ]. I wanted a lot .. but got nothing [ nothing means NOTHING ]. And the story continues .... not happy .. not happy ..

I never understood why do we humans love to choose pain .... when we do have better options .. or DO WE HAVE BETTER OPTIONS ? Aint pain the best option to dwell ur life in .... cause its stagnant .. and wont leave u ever .. its fidle .. assuring tht it wont ditch u . So i dont regret this pain .... cause its mine ..cause i own it .. rather I have CHOOSEN it !!

PS 1 ## The more you know .. you know how little you know !!

PS 2 ## Ek aur asafal prayas kuch likhne ka ... but then they say : " try try again .. until crap is stated a CRIME under the LAW . So i will keep trying to come up with better craps ;)

eye 2 eye

eye 2 eye , i guess this the worst & may be the toughest test ever designed. Cause all it tests is the dignity of ur own self. Its too difficult to look right down in to those 2 demanding & all enquiring .... desperately staring & closely observing .. yet very beautiful eyes.

Well to clear it all before i proceed .. it aint the eyes of my beloved .. its quite general .... well personally i think most of us have beautiful eyes .. cause they r the one which talk no bullshit .. reflect the truth .. and bare it all .... and those - the one which show maximum possible conviction. As they say :: "Eyes dont LIE " [ i mean someone wud have said it .. and if not someone .. then be it me :)].

Well the very moment i have a manipulated talk .. right there at the doorsteps of my tongue .. to be delivered as luceratively as possible .. to refect conviction .. my eyes always fail me. I mean even if its a boy .... i dare not look in to thy eyes. And u know wht its always easier to overlook.
Well to tell u the truth .. the friends [ GIRLS ] i have recently [ since an year ] been with .. always complain to me tht i overlook .... but truly i cannot gaze in to any of those eyes with all the conviction inside me ..... well its not because i dont respect them as a friend .. I DO [ and ofcourse with all conviction ].... its just tht i havent been good to them. And with not doing this gazing stuff i guess the story continues.

As a part of my life i love to observe people. And one particular thing tht i have noticed abt girls is tht they try to peep in to ur eyes .... as if they knw the secret path to ur heart & ur thoughts. They have been blessed with tht austere quality of reading ones eyes [ Being a boy i dont knw .... wht boys r blessed with .. if anyone knws plzz do let me knw through a comment ].

But whenevr i m out ... out as in .. for bird watching .. u knw wht this word sucks .. i guess beauty watching is much better & perfectly suiting ..... so whenevr i go out in town for beauty watching i always try to peep in to those eyes .... i dont knw wht do i search for .. but it gives me a kind of peace inside .. and its heavenly if u receive a sweet smile [ cause tht means tht the conviction in my eyes hav been approved ] .... and its hell if one frowns [ its rare though .. but i guess there the problms with the individual himself .. i m not to be blamed ].

And i always wonder wht shud one do when trapped in such kind of obnoxious tests .. i guess theres no solution as such. Being a good fella i wont advocate the fact of drawing false conviction in thy eyes .... well one can try to be less manipulative [ i knw its hard .. cause ur surrounded by masks around .. but then he who is GREAT is different frn the LEAGUE .... u knw not being a SHEEP sort of a thing ] .

To reveal certain secrets :::::

The no. of boys i have peeped in to --- eye 2 eye .... well very few .. but i guess i m evolving .

The no. of girls i have peeped in to --- eye 2 eye .... an enormous number .. lots of them .. i dont remember the faces .. but i do remeber the sweet smiles they showered at me .... and for tht i m obliged. Dudettes u have been kind. U have helped me grow.

The no. of girls who have peeped in to thy eyes ---eye 2 eye -- hahaha --- hahaha --- AINT IT FUNNY -- till date may be none .... mmm may be i didnt gave anyone a chance. Lets see wht my eyes have in store for there future. Best of luk !!



umm presently it feels so beautiful to write all this .... all this makes me remember those hollywood movies .. The GIRL searches for the BOYS eyes [ those hazel eyes ... arent they CUTE ].. the BOY looks back .. as if he had never shown such a conviction in his life .. as if all he felt was being recited .. through his eyes .. and in this mist of LOVE the eyes talk ..... one 2 one .... eye 2 eye .... the lips come closer ... and BANG ..[ lol ]

But they say lifes not a MOVIE .... but arent the moives a thought of an individual .. so they r a part of ones life & thus closely reflect life .. so they r worth to learn frm. I dont knw whether i have learned or not .... but i have definitely LOVED them.

So whoever reads this [ by mistake though ] .. whether he/she is a LOVER or a BROKE [ like me ] .... let ur loved ones knw how much u care .. THROUGH UR EYES ... all u need to do is .... an EYE 2 EYE ;)

PS :: remove ur specs first.

home .....

hmm i m back. Added few more pounds to my very STOUT body. This time it was quite a long holiday .. and as i write this, i feel as if i m quite new to this keyboard. Its been days i touched it .... adored it with beautiful thoughts in mind. But this time the visit to home was highly boring [ though this wont discourage my attachment to the place where i once dwelled ... and the place which still smells of my sweat & which is still dirty by my muddy feet .. though shoes have taken over].

So i said the visit was very boring. And mom as always knew it [ how cud these women read ur mind ] .... so she was kind of sad with me. Even the only timepass at home .. TV .. wasnt good enough. How can one appreciate some bull**** remixes when the minds not at peace & the hearts not gay.

well so the dayzz passed by .... and the only thing the family cud find fun in was RAMAYANA. It was being shown on a local channel. Though it was 102 nd time we were watching it .... but to my father it was as interesting as it was the very first time. And thus we saw it all ...... the graphical ARROWS ... BHRAHMASTRA .. and all ..

They [star movies] showed TITANIC yesterday .. but .. RAVANA was mightier i guess .. so RAMAYANA continued .... well i just wonder do we really learn anything frm it .. if i call my elder bro by his name .. a mere RAMAYANA [tht to a mere series on TV] wont change my mind. For sheakspeare there was nothing in name .. but for me its all in ur name .. its ur identity .. the identity given to u by the one who chose u to take birth .. the one who sowed the seed ..

I desperately wanted to go to DANDIA .. but my family not being tht sociable hardly has any contacts .. so i got no passes and may be thts wht worked me to boredom. And to add to my frustration i watched its LIVE telecast on tv .... ha ha ha ha !!

While comin back I just landed in to the auto [ they call it TEMPO in my city ] with a huge bag .. all full ofcourse .. And as i struggled for a seat among the people already inside .. the kid in front of me stared .... the same way as i used to stare people with bags & baggages when i was a kid .. and all i cud say to him n my thoughts was :: " Hey come on !! i m a KID too .. just tht i have grown up a bit & mistakenly joined a college .. so now i need to carry bags ... and theres clothes only .. no chocolates dear."

So it was not something like a holiday fun ... but its always painful to depart .. to see those dull faces of my parents waving me good bye. But dont worry DIpaWALIS near na .... ;)

oct 5 .... 2k5

woke up in the morning .. and wasnt in good mood at all. I guess it was cause since last two dayzzz i have had a blasting mood .. "HAVENT BEEN HAPPIER" kinds .. but then lifes not a peice of cake .. and even if it is .. the taste changes evry single time. SO even if u have some pretty damn good reasons to be happy .. certain things .. or certain people to be precise .. wont let u be happy. But r they really to be blamed for this .... now tht i have started believing tht whtevr happens in life is already planned .. so i might not blame anybody .. not even myself. But then one may ask .. then why do we do things?? ... well we actually dont do things ..we r just involved in them .. cause we r supposed to be involved & so r others .. SO NO ONES TO BE BLAMED ACTUALLY .

Hey i didnt went home today .. i really hate this .. when my decisions r driven based on others decisions. I knw thts pathetic .. but thts the way it is. And i do blame myself here. I knw its confusing. But whos not confused on this mother EARTH .. atleast i m .. for sure [ no confusion in tht ;) ]. BUt finally got tomorrows ticket so tht i m bound to go.

Apart frm this i have some better thing to say here ::::

O dear LORD !! I dont knw who u r .. i dont evn knw whether u exist or not .. but theres something tht i do believe in .... and i knw thts somewhere inside me only. Though I havent found it yet. But whtevr it is .... let me call it GOD [ i m no exception ] ..

So dear GOD !! i wish to thank u today for whtevr u gave me. I know i have been criticising destiny .. tht u wrote for me .. but aint i HUMAN ?? And i guess i m supposed to behave this way only. SInce all these years of my life .... i have seen lots of people around .. GOOd .. bad .. ugly .. poor & rich .. lovely & caring .. pretentious & wild .. and i have always thought of being among the RICH, the GOOD & the LOVELY ..

I thank u tht u have always infused me with such nice thoughts [ i feel it tht way ] tht i havent been bad. Though i have few regrets in my life ... U gave me the best parents .. loving brothers .. aNd some very caring friends. U might have missed on few things [ ;) ] but i guess tht hasnt been much of a pain.

And i pray to u tht i change the least during the rest of my life. And nobody those i love part frm me [ exaggerated .. but quite humanistic ]. JUst need some blessings .. and the life wud be rocking again .. [ ya forsure i have had some very good times in my life .. havent been always pathetic yaar ]

And i pray tht i have the same love & respect for my parents & bros. I willing bear my responsibilities .. now & at later stages ..

No specifications for love life till now ;) . Its been pathetic till now .. but it hardly matters .... sometimes its even worth crying for no good reasons .. or for some stupid reasons.

So just be with me .. as u have always been .

AMEN !!

hollywOOd !!

Watched a hell lota Hollywood these dayz. Never wished like studying .. so wht could be a better time pass. But this time it was not a mere timepass .... it was more to it. Cause movies deserved more. Well this time i gave it a thought .. tht though watchin movies is never a wastage of time .. but yet u do invest some ipm part of ur life in them .. so better try to learn from them.

Cause if theres something in front of u .. the things tht ur watching with all interesting eyes, alert ears & complete sense .... have been there in somebodies mind .. and tht is why there .. And since they have been a mind product [With a bit of heart game as well ... i tell u both conspire ] .. then they r worth understanding & sometimes taken in to account. So let me start now ..

October Sky ::



The movies all abt aspirations, dreams & the ZEAL inside. Its abt being deterministic on wht u dream at .. though today it may be new rather WEIRD [ to be more precise ] .. but its ur dream & ur the one whos going to realise it actually .... so its all abt to u .. to GO FOR IT or to DUMP it. Its all abt going against the odds & then in the end turning them ur way.

As for the story part its abt the dream of a boy to be a ROCKET SCIENTIST .. and his dreams were set back by the very fact tht he lived in COALWOOD .... a city of call mines. A city where from grandparents to grandsons .. all have been miners & nothing MUCH .. nothing LESS .

Based on a book by HOLMER HICKAM :: "rocket boys" .. its a nice movie with nicer music.

The Shawshank Redemption ::



Hmm another nice move. Well there nothing special in this movie .. other then the dialogues & tht BLACK guy [Morgan Freeman].. hes a damn good actor .... watched him in a lot of movies .. and hes like too good.

Its all abt a person who was once the VICE PRESIDENT of a reputed bank in the states. But he gets a life sentence for killing his wife & the one SHE slept with. [ though till theend of the movie u might not make it out tht did he really do it .. cause he says he didnt SHOOT ] .. and then how with patience & just strong will manages to dig a tunnel across his cell but just using a sletch hammer .

And he escapes the prison .. through the SHIT PIPE . ugggghhhhh i aint .. prisons a HEAVEN ... to hell with freedom [ lol .. i knw i m overreacting .. but its HOLLYWOOD going on here ]. Hmm this is all crap let me tell ya some thing much better abt this movie .....

Theres this scene in which this creep [ Tim Robbins ] somehow plays a OPERA music on the jail calling radio .... and MAN u shud have seen the relief & hope on the faces of people out there [ hell lota actors they r ] And for this offence he beaten like hell .. and when he joins others they ask him why did he do this . He says ::::

" Theres something inside they cant get to .. something they cant touch "
"Whts IT ?? "
" HOPE "
" HOPE my friend is a dangerous thing .. It can drive a man INSANE " [ said by the black guy ]

Then at the end after getting free .... the creep writes a letter to the BLACKY ::

"HOPE my friend is a good thing .... MAy be the best thing .. ANd no good thing if it DIES " .....

ANOTHER ONE :: " I m so excited .. THE excitement a free man can feel ... THe one whos started a long journey whos conclusions uncertain".

Mean Girls ::::



Lindsay .. i dont knw whether shes good at acting or not .. though shes done a pretty decent job .... but forsure SHES hell lota CUTE & has a very pulling VOICE. Hmm guess wht my latest CRUSH. And forsure again .. i m not kiddin .. shes just soo .. whtevr .... shes a CRUSH ....

So abt the movie its one of those emotional hollywood movies .... the girl whos never ever been to a real school before lands up in to a typical AMERICAN HIGHSCHOOL straight frm AFRICA .... now u wud wonder how cum LIVDSAY shes white .. & frm AFRICA ..... was the director NUTTTS ..... whtevr

Ya so the chicks new to the college .. and with the pretentious & egoistic .. turn others down .... kind of a world around her .. SHE turns mean [ but shes still cute ;)] .. and then she realises her mistakes ...... and wishes tht she was bevr in such kind of a world. And then shes back .. & as beautiful as she was before.

And hey hey .... SHES a MATHS jenious in the movie .. i knw its weird but she is .. & tht adds to the crush ....

The Lord of the RIngs ::::



Watched all three parts. all simply superb. Wont say much abt it ... but one thing

" Know ur responsibilities ... and be willing to bear their burden .. to carry them till they r realised "

PS :: Hey me going home. So i thought just putting up a big pst this time .. c ya after few dayzz . happy holidazzzzz . Buh Bye .

Deep Down ..... Gone !!

Hahahahaha .....

Two posts in a single day ..lol ... tht too in a span of 5 mere minutes ...
But dont be scared friends .. this ones going to be a SHORTER crap !!

I just happen to write a SCRAP to one of my very old & DEAR friend whos in MERCHANT NAVY .... and i ended up being a bit poetic & philosophical .. so I just wished to share .. I leave it to U to extract the deep down hidden meaning ... or LOL is there any ??

So the LINES r [this is an extended version ]::::

The waves may entice u
The dolphins may offer u a charm
The storms may throw u a challenge
The ships may give u spirit
The harbour may attract ur peace
The islands may adhere a welcome
The stars may show U direction
The icebergs might HAUNT you
And being a part of the VAST SEa may give u pride

but ...

Nevr forget the one on land ..
The one who faces the cool breeze from tht very sea
The one who waved U goodbye times back
The one who wishes tht storm turns his way than urs
The one who prays tht stars tell u the right path
The one who wishes the icebergs to melt
the one waiting for u ..
with all love & affection !!

PS :: Obnoxious na .... hey 5 minutes dont change a mans moood !!

?? ...... ??

One fine day (yesterday to be very precise) .... i woke up late .. and i cannot admit here how badly i hate sleeping .... i feel its a mere wastage of time .. though while awake .. i do nothing better then wasting precious moments of an important phase of my life. Will i regret this ever ??

And all the damn MINd comes up with r questions .. one after the other ..... or is it the HEART thts throwing those questions at the MIND .... ugggghh its a dirty game the two of them play & leave me confused & in distress. neways here r few of the questions tht demanded answers ...... but who cares ...

hauNting queStions :::::

1. Why do I like my rooms door closed & locked ?
2. Why do I loVe being alone though I have a nice roomie ?
3. Why do I wish to write though I know its pathetic ?
4. Why do I listen to others fears & pains though I myself am weak ?
5. Why do I long for loVe though I have so much of it around me ?
6. Why am I not serious abt certain things tht govern my life ?
7. Why do I wish for more friends though I have many ?
8. Why dont I take initiatives though I wish to be on top ?
9. Rather Why do I wish to be on top ?
10. Why am I not so knowledgeable ?
11. Why do I feel my lifes pathetic though I know GOD has been kind to me ?
12. Why Why Why ...... Why this goddamn Why ?

13. Why do I wish to close my eyes when I know there things I need to face ?
14. Why am I such a DESPO ?
15. Why havent I realised any of my dreams till date ?
16. Why am I so aimless & confused ?
17. Why do I love wasting time though I know it wont come back ?
18. Why the hell did I got drunk though it was the first & the last time ?
19. Why doesnt happiness stays forever ?
20. Why are guys GAY ... though I dont object LESBIANS ?
21. Why do I ask such obnoxious questions as well ?
22. Why have I taken birth .... any purpose .... naaaah I dont think sooo ?
23. Why do I wish to hide the pain & show tht FAKED smiling face ?
24. Rather Is there any pain actually .... or its an illusion ?
25. Why dont I feel like working hard ? [ A bad question ]
26. And why the hell these questions have no answers ????????
27. Rather Why such questions ??????

I knw even if there r any answers they wud be more HAUNTING !!!!




PS :::: Today I m in good moood. So plzzz dont conclude tht I was sad or something .... yups the mood was fluctuating yesterday .... its was kind of obnoxious !! And forsure there r hell lot more questions tht I wont write here ??