the need to be disingenuous ??

Do i need to be disingenuous .... is being manipulative the impression ??



1. U jst went out with somebody .. u come back & people [ ur so called friends ] surround u ..

" Hey wht happened " ..... " how did it went "

Inspite of askin how did u find her ..... or what tht person is like ?? they wud ask u .. "did u managed to touch her somewhere ?? " ..... "any kisses ?? " [ though some mean it .. & some ask it for momental fun .. whtevr ]

" hey hey leave this .. we will inquire it later ....... comeon tell us the whole story .. "
and u knw wth this guy isnt one of those HIDING types ... so he yells it all .

We went there ... did this ... she said tht & i said this ...... and as this is the first meeting nothing really happened .... rather lots of stupidities did ... hehe .. quite normal !! And when hes reciding it all .. right frm the core of his heart assuming tht people standing rite over his head wud understand & may be .... jst understand .... but u knw wht goes over his head .....

hes yelling it all out .. with some shyness .. some blushing cheeks .. and a happy heart .. and they .. the one standing over his head .. make a secret gaze to each other .. and their eyes pointing downwards .. towards tht guy .. saying :: " U see this jack ass .. haha .. yelling it all" .... " another stupid jackass " .. and they knw tht he will be on for an assault some time later if things dont really workout for him !! How pathetic of tht guy :) .. [ lol .. even i m one of those asshole friends .. i aint a saint .. but its bad man .. i need to rethink now .. wont play with anyones feelings .. promise ]

[ this isnt personal .. and this thing wasnt abt how boys think abt girls .. it was abt how people like me can be insensitive at times to others feelings .. and give a damn .. very very bad .... ]

[ nahin dear .... we guys arent tht bad as u girls think we r ..... see we may talk abt it .. but nevr feel like tht .... ab exceptions r alwayz there .... but its in girlz too ..

as saif said in HUM TUM ... " MAIN ACHA ADMI NAHIN HOON " .. but then he had his fingers crossed .. actually u wudnt hav noticed it .. but i saw it ..

so HUM LADKE BURE NAHIN HAIN .. zara NAZARIYA BADAL KAR TO DEKHO .... U WILL LOVE THE HIDDEN PART ;) ]

2. hehe ..... after a long long time .. u find some person [ girl ] u knw .. and u say : " Hey remember me ... kahin bhool to nahin gayin " .. and lol ... no reply ??
and if u wud ask someone ... he wud say ... " Hey she didnt even knew u well .. is she supposed to remeber u ... " .... Ok fine .. agreed .. but then they say .. u cud have said something else ... "something interesting" .. .. hey comeon .... i m what i am .. if i wish to ask it straight & stupid " REMEBER ME " thing .. then thts the way i ask .. sorry if this doesnt work in the common " HOW TO IMPRESS " dictionary .. no regrets for tht ..... i am the way i am .... and i wont be some MANIPULATED SHIT !!

3.Now this ones funny .. suppose .. u fall for a girl .. i knw u dont need to hurry .. u have to give her time to think & understand .... but they say : " If u admit it all .. ur a jackass .. BHAV KHAYEGI .. be mysterious .. " .. again tht stupid thing .. " BE interesting " ........ come on .. get off me !! Wht kind of a process is this to make someone fall for u .. haha .. they call it the road to love .. or some other crap .... R U KIDDIN ME ... and they wud say : " THTS HOW IT GOES BRO " ... LOVE .... i dont give a damn to it then [ hehe jst kiddin :D ]

4. Am i too complicated .. or people have no knowlegde of easy riddles ??

HUH !! This world of perpetual antagonism !!

lol .. how do i knw all this .... hehe ... a hopeless romantic knows it all ;) .

so ANUJ sudhar jao .. be the good mama's son & obey ur dad who says " Dont hurt anyone " ..

CIAO :)

PS : Today my horoscope said : "If you feel it, think it or care about it, it's going to be written all over your face -- so hiding your feelings is entirely out of the question. If you've got something to say to someone, resistance is futile " ..... so i m not to be blamed again :D

isnt it all abt passion ??

Dean :: U know the greeks didnt write the obituaries .. they only asked one question after a man died ..... Did he have passion ???? .. [frm SERENDIPITY ]

Ur walking alone in the corridor .. and frm tripathi's room came the sound : " Pehla nasha pehla khumar .. naya pyaar hai naya intezaar .. " .... and u jst sway as amir did .. u jumb higher then him .. legs at 45 degrees , the arm trying to touch the ceiling .. u take off the towel frm the rope .... and dance with it .. one step to the left .. and then one to the right .. and u sway & sing .. " pehla nasha pehla khumar ... " ...... aint it passion ?? dont knw .. but whtever it is its nice ..

Its all abt passion. In one or the other way everyones passionate. And when u cross those thin lines of passion .. u enter the so called OBSSESSED terittory.

Dance ::The music plays .. and the feet starts moving .. be it rock n roll .. or a freakish bollywoood song .. or even " TUM TO THEHRE PARDESI " fame songs .. u jst cant stop. There r 2 kinds of people who make the most of their stay on the floor ::
1. the one whos galloped bottles of wine
2. the one whos galloped bottles of passion

And its not abt catchin the rythm [ though in my case it is ] .. but its abt swaying ur body along the music .... u become that leaf which moves along the breeze unaware of the fact tht it wud be lost in the mist .. ur tht passionate leaf ..

Sports :: AHem !! " Mujhe harna pasand nahin, par kya karoon jitna nahin aata " .... but still whether u win or u loose .. atleast u played .. and in those final moments of 14 each [ in a 15 point game ] .. second serve .. the nerves r high .... sweat runnin down ur spine .. He serves .. and with that all hot & passioned arm u give it a smash .. the serve breaks ..the battle half one .. now winning or loosing hardly matters .... u have done wht u wished to do .. U lived up the passion .

Material stuff :: Ya u hav passion for some materialistic stuff .... some for SUTTA .. some for bikes .. spikes .... long hairs .. accesories ... bags .. the list goes on. They just give a feeling of pleasure.And it sounds gud to say : " Hey i m passionate abt X .. jst cant resist it " ..

Love :: love ?? .. love is really capricious .. very unknown indeed. It entices u .. and at the same time lets u down. One point of time u wish to hear slow music .. at a moderate sound .... and then u just wish to blow ur ears out .. with the max they can bear. Its all on a swing .. up & down .. high & low .. excitement & fear. Its pretty real .. and then u realise that it never existed. Is it so independent tht it behaves this way or is it governed by some other force which we have no idea of. I guess ....

Love aint fidel
Love aint fiddle

Love aint fear
Love aint dear

Love aint sane
Love aint pain

Love aint a buddy
Love aint foe

Love aint me
Love aint you

Love aint soft
Love aint strong

Love aint morning
Love aint twilight

Love aint rosy
Love aint bleak

Love aint Love .... Love is a hopeless romantic !! :D

now what shud i say .. u knw wht .. i was searching for an appropriate pic for this post .. and i typed passion .. hehe .... its was all kissing & some stills of sexual pleasure. Now let me clear this Passion isnt all abt Sex. Anuj's theory :

Only passion ---> lust ... so called .. " my god SEEEEEEEEXXXxxxx " .. the taboo word .. come on its not like tht .. sex is not seeeeexxxx .. its a feeling. whatevr ..

Passion + emotion + care + bla bla bla [ :D ] ----> love .
So love isnt all abt passion & similarly passion isnt all abt love & sex. Its some love .. some passion .. all one need is a nice mix ..

Boys & Girls :: now whos more passionate ?? any answers ?? or is there any point of competition ....

as per dictionary ::
Passion :: 1. A powerful emotion
2. Ardent love.
3. Strong sexual desire; lust.
4. The object of such love or desire.
5. Boundless enthusiasm
6. The sufferings of Jesus in the period following the Last Supper

Ur walking alone in the corridor .. and frm tripathi's room came the sound : " Pehla nasha pehla khumar .. naya pyaar hai naya intezaar .. " .... and u jst sway as amir did .. u jumb higher then him .. legs at 45 degrees , the arm trying to touch the ceiling .. u take off the towel frm the rope .... and dance with it .. one step to the left .. and then one to the right .. and u sway & sing .. " pehla nasha pehla khumar ... " ...... aint it passion ?? dont knw .. but whtever it is its nice ..

SO wht do u wish the answer shud be .. when ur out on the other journey .. out of this world .... and people asking ... DID HE/SHE HAVE PASSION ????

Ps :: Focus .... Focus anuj .. Focus !!

a life called ' serendipity '

In the month of november .. in the darkness of night and under the powerful moon .. a soul took birth . He was send to this sinful earth ... and before accepting this .. he asked for his answers and was confronted by GOD .. and was convinced of his need on mother earth . But still whatever the reasons may be he knew tht being on earth wasnt a good sign for a soul .. cause if once a soul was sent on it .. it was bound to gointo cycles of life, death & acts .... and it wasnt soon that he cud come back to thy place .. the place he earlier used to dwell in.

After experiencing 21 years of life .... the soul looks back .. [ hes named ANUJ ]

To him being sent to earth didnt sounded gud .. and thus he felt unlucky .... but as GOD had conveyed to him .. he took birth in a loveable family. The honest,emotional, loving, caring [ overcaring rather ], educating, understanding and a loveable individual .. his father . He is the man who taught him how to walk .. and not to stumble .. and how to take ground on things that u believe in [ he nevr said tht .. but ANUJ learned this only frm him .. ANUJ dont knw when & how .... but he did ]. Hes the one who infused in him feelings of love & care .... and to be calm in situations of distress .. never to boil .. evn if the temperatures high .. to be as patient as possible .. to give respect and to earn it in greater amounts .... to be disciplined yet a rule breaker .... to be nice & gud to others .. and never expect a return .. to give .. give & only give ... nevr to demand . Now all ANUJ thinks abt is tht has he been successful in implementing all he learned .... though he strives ..

The innocent, lovely, very caring & all giving women .... his mother. ANUJ knows wht phases of life she had faced .... when in her childhood she lost her father .. and with no brother .. and only 3 sisters .. how they all managed to make the ends meet. A women who hadnt seen much of a love at a time when she needed most of it .. one who didnt got the lessons from her father ..... yet she managed to pour so much of intangible LOVE on her children & her hubby .... dont knw how she managed tht ???? She is the one who taught him the lessons of life ... tht lifes not a bed of roses ... but whatever it is .. jst walk on it .. and give ur maximum to it .. it might tease u .. but then ultimately ur the one how has to LIVE it out. A woman who taught her to be sagacious but not shrewd. And ANUJ thinks wud he ever be able to return the amount of love she showered on him ..... but for sure she will always be there in his heart ..

And then those two nice & nerdy brothers. He spent the years of his childhood playing with them ... with lots of fights .. booooom .... baaaang ... and lots of unshown love. And he always tried to discover them as individuals .. and the quest goes on. And ANUJ prays tht he always keep loving them more then himself.

Then one fine day ANUJ came out of that cosset world .. out in to a new world .. a world full of strange yet loveable people. He met his friends .. god had told him abt them .. " they need someone whom they cud play with ... someone with whom they cud share secrets tht arent even known to there mom & dad .. someone with whon they can hangout .. have fun .. someone who is always there for them .. both in odd & even times ....someone who understands tht there mood is not good today yet messes with them .... someone to fight with .. someone on whos shoulder they cud cry .. someone who will be half their life .... THEY will be ur FRIENDZ .... " .. and each word of it was true. They were weird yet he wished to knw them .. and inch by inch he came closer .... some denied him .. and some gave loads of love .. but he knew that was a part of life ..

And even today .. he just keeps on looking for more & more. Its becuase he heard it somewhere : " THE MORE YOU KNOW, YOU KNOW HOW LITTLE YOU KNOW " .. so he just keeps on going .. in search of more friends .. [ and this BLOG thing was a true serendipity ] .

In 21 years of his life he had seen the world but through his eyes .... he had made others see the world but with there eyes .... but the one was missing who cud see the world THROUGH HIS EYES .... the thing tht he feared in this whole world was this EYE 2 EYE game .... and the one that was yet to be found was the one in whos eyes he cud gaze for days .. and yet not blink. Someone who wud be the world to him .." THE SPECIAL ONE " ....... the one GOD called " THE LOVE OF UR LIFE " .. and this haunted him .... cause he knew that life on earth was wierder then the people who dwelled there .. it cud be gone at any time .. any moment .. or it wud just go on long .. crawling .. a nothing life .. and he feared tht .... cause if by anyhow he was here .. he wished to make the most of it . So he jst wonders .. waiting for a serendipitacious moment ;)

And these 21 years were quite enough to make him realise that it wasnt bad actually .. that it was not abt the needs or anything .. tht it was abt understanding something more imp .. it was abt relations .. abd his idiosyncrasies .. to undertsnd himself .. his soul .. and the LORD .

And after these 21 years .. he knws wht it is .... its ..

A LIFE CALLED ' SERENDIPITY '




PS :: HEy u knw wht these posts dont jst come out of blue .. ya i watched serendipity today .. i had watched it on STAR MOVIES before years back .. but didnt knew tht it was serendipity ... lol .. newyaz the movie is real gud . Now i knw why is it almost everyones favourite.

hopeless romantics

Its really hard to discover urselves. U knw things that are always there .. but most of the things keep on changing .. and they just surprise u of urself. But its life .. as capricious as it cud be. Got a new name for my blog .. this is probably the 4 th time i have changed it .

HOPELESS ROMANTICS !! Its an outrage i guess .. an alarm to myself .... to adhere to the truth .. to follow the voice thats calling me home [home as in to peace ].. to follow my dreamz .. to strive realising them .. to be besides myself .... to understand thyself .... not to change for anything or anyone .. cause romantics dont change .. hopeful or hopeless whatever.

HOPELESS ROMANTICS !! Its NOT a defeated warrior .. though it had lost the combat .. but its better to run sometimes then face & just vanish .... so in seclusion it plans thy war .... and wont let go .. Its not that " HES BACK" .. its like "HE WAS NEVER GONE !! IT WAS U WHOM HE FOOLED !!". And he isnt defeated cause "The more combats you face the more an assasin you become .. u just wait for the right moment" .

[[ READ THIS ]]
Everything here is imaginary .. but aint this true ?? AT certain times u quit a battle just because u hav got exhausted or probably bored of it !! But its never gone .. its there .. people mock on u for being cowardly .. but u knw tht in the end its TIME tht knows who wud mock whom .. So u ready for d battle ????



Hopeless romantics, here we go again
On a similar road to remain insane
To think, feel and bear the pain
A similar try to discover the life lane

Hopeless romantics, here we go again
Untouched, unlearned and the usual
To strive, fall and let go all in vain
A similar try to discover the love lane

Hopeless romantics, here we go again
Unknown, unheard and the unordinary
To put up a smile & go out
A similar way .... the usual .... the hopeless !!!!!!

PS :: A combat with life & love .. Got the name from one of the EAGLES songs :: " THERES A NEW KID IN TOWN ". So theres nothing intentional about it .. and plzzz people dont form opinions over this haan [ ur free to comment though ] !! lol .. lots of people here think tht i m obssesses with love .. no it intrigues me a lot .. it teases me .... to dare understand it .. as dhruv said ::"TO KNW WHT THE FUSS IT ACTUALLY IS " !!

confused .... in a mood to revolt ..

Life is always on a swing ... when ur on a high .. ur excited , happy and u just wish tht the moments stop .. though theres a fear .. but theres this pact between FEAR & EXCITEMENT .... one hides the other .. rather most of the times one aides the other .... but when the swing comes down .. the excitement departs .. and u feel tht in the next swing u might fall .. and then fear takes over excitement .. and this fear induces a feeling of pain .. the pain of not touching the heights .... hte pain of fallling .... the pain of growing fear & departing excitement ..

A sloppy figure sitting on the chair .. the thoughts run .. the moods swing .. and its pain tht wins over all excitement & hapiness . U can nevr know when certain things that u dumped times back may turn back on to u .... not in the exact form .... a different look .. but the same perspective.

Understanding thy mind & thy heart .. has always been an arduous task. Apart from dealing them separately wht is most difficult is to understand the relationship the two share .. though it smells the same as that of FEAR & EXCITEMENT .... but here .. its not abt aiding or hiding the other .. its about conspiring. Each one conspires against each. If heart desires something .... the mind conspires to get the desire fulfilled .... and when the mind puts a demand .. the heart does the same . BUt in this doing & supporting the two contradict each other . And in this mutual warfare They create an atmosphere of confusion for the one who adheres to them.

GOD knew that if he was supposed to create soomeone whom he was to give enough powers to take his decisions & act accordingly .. then in order to prove thy superiority .... he was bound to render control not to a songle entity .... cause it wud never lead to difficulties & confusions .... and that was what he wanted him to learn face & fight .... the confusion ....

SO sitting here most of the time of a normal 24 hrs day .... i face this cofusion .. and as a brave warrior i never denied fighting it .. but then its a long battle .. and i aint that powerful to continue fighting endlessly .... and it is this time that one give up .. and surrenders .. though GOD wishes him to continue fighting ... but now tht i have learned by reading this book [ " THE FIFTH MOUNTAIN " by paulo coelho ] thts sometimes u r required to go against thy LORDS will .. and u need to fight GOD .... u dont quit ur deeds .. but u just forget ur past & move ahead .. without an air of confusion around .. against his will .... and against ur own thoughts ....

If untill yesterday I was crazy abt LOVE .. and the secrets tht it held .... it wasnt me who choose it .. it was something i was bound to be crazy abt .. i cudnt have helped it .... nobdy can help it .. whatever happens to u .. ur not accountable for those .... but ur sure accountable for ur deeds .. so all ugot to do is move along tht path .. and at times u may even voilate the path ....take a turn .. ultimately to return to it .. after some rest & some efforts [ though against ] .

SO i m not against love or something .... but i m against the confusion it creates .... the "longing for someone attacks" ..and obviously the pain it gives ... though pain is trustable .. fidle .. but do we really wish for it ?? or do we really have a choice ??

Lay a whisper on my pillow,
Leave the winter on the ground.
I wake up lonely,
There's air of silence in the bedroom
And all around.
Touch me now,
I close my eyes and dream away.

It must have been love
But it's over now.
It must have been good
But I lost it somehow.
It must have been love
But it's over now. [ ROXETTE ]

PS :: THe head was heavy .. the nose was red [ with flu ] .. and the temperature did the rest .. and then read MIRAGE's post .. and it nailed the coffin .. how can GOD be so cruel .. hasnt he got brains to think abt certain thngs & plan them accordingly . neways under these circumstances i m not to be blamed for this post.

Thy Princess - 1

Disclaimer :: Hey this series is abt the girl who hasnt yet come in my life .. and even if shes entered my life .. its not yet official .. i mean i dont hav a clue abt it yet. I have been madly lookin for her .. cause the earlier i get her .. the more time i will have to knw her & more time to spend with her before death departs us. SO its abt her & the way i feel for her [ lol .. isnt it insane to feel for someone u dont even knw yet .. and even if u knw u dont knw tht for whom it is .....]

I aint a prince .. but then i wish to become the one she has always dreamt of .. the one who comes on a horse .. and teases her emotions ..

She aint got a kingdom .. but for me shes a princess [ though she nevr comes in my dreamz .. not even on a mare ] .... dont knw how she looks .. dont knw how tall she is .. dont knw does she hav long hairs or not .... dont knw a thing abt her .... but she exists .. forsure .. somewhere .. in some kingdom .... all i need to do is find my way .... read my signs .. reach her & make her my queen .

BUt its hard aint it ..... u just try to find LOVE & the LOVE conspires to let u get lost .. and u just end up with nothing but pain . ANd then u think .... she aint there .. then one fine morning u wake up with smile on ur face .. twinkling eyes .. and the first thought in ur heart says ..... shes there .. thts why i smiled today ..

GOd created men, women, this world & hes the one who defined love .. but then GOD too fell in love one day .. [ LOVE never spares anyone .. not even the creator ] .. and then the greed to get tht LOVE made him change some rules .. it made him mad .. and from then no one knws wht actually LOVE is .. when it grips u & when it leaves u with scars all around ur soul .. LOVE is capricious .... and thus each day i fall for thy princess .. and capriciously its stronger & weaker .... but its there ....

ALL i wish to say to u my princess [ read it if ur there ] is this ....

I can show u the world
Shining, shimering, splendid
Tell me princess when did u last let ur heart decide

I can open ur eyes
Take you wonder by wonder
Over sideways and under .. on a magic carpet ride

A whole neeeew woooooorld .....

A dazzling place u nevr knew
But when ur up there its crystal clear
THat now u need a wole new world .... with meeeeee ....

Unbelievable site, indescribabale feelings
Storming, tumbling, revealing through an endless diamond sky
A whole neeeeeeew woooooooorld ....
Dont u dare close ur eyes ....

Let me share this whole new world with u ...
A whole new world thts where we will be ....
The running chase .. a wonderous place .. for..
YOU and ME ....

[ a song frm ALLADIN ]


PS :: its always gud to have these series .... i have this HOME .. and HUM TUM series .. they r fun .. and u do hav something to write when theres nothing on ur mind. ANd i guess people like it as well.

finally i have been tagged !!

Two gorgeous, bubbly and very mysterious girls tagged me [ hey manleen .. hey megha wht do i get for this praise haan :) ]

I always wanted to get tagged .. but now tht i m trying to write .. things seeem to freeze around me. Its cold out here.

Milo taged me first. SOunds difficult .. 20 things about me .. do i knw myself tht much. Lets try ..

1. Extremely lazy .. i hav always believed in tomorrow [ i hate it though ]

2. A bit particular abt being messy .. things around me could be messy .. but me .. naaaaah .... so i love being neat, clean & a bit sophisticated.

3. Intrigued as usual abt lots of things .... almost everything around me .. wish to knw things tht revolve around me

4. Its music tht drives me .. nevr imagined a world without it .. And dont even wish to imagine. Somehow it completes the missing part of mine.

5. Girls .. i think they r the best creation of GOD .. not becuase they r d opposite sex .. and not because they induce some hormonal feelings .. just because we boys cannot survive without them .. in different roles .. a mom .. a sis .. a mysterious friend .. and as an acquaintance they r a part of our lifes.

6. crazy about english movies .. it wasnt so tht i was born watchin a hollywood boxofice hit .. i started it just years back .. but they hav influenced me a lot. Favourite movie .. SWEET NOVEMBER .

7. When i look down upon my life .. it seems to be a bit pathetic .. but it was cool in its own way .. as i have grown i have learned a lot .. grown as an individual .... and have made some very loveable friends

8. I m a bit fashionable. NOt at those dayz when mom used to stuff me up into wollen sweaters & all . BUt now tht i no more adore them .. i have become a bit fashionable .. and i just hate it when they say FASHION IS ALL ABT BEING COMFORTABLE IN WHAT U WEAR .... thts bullshit ..

9. love my mom .. papa .. and the two [very humorous & interesting ] brothers. Family is what i cannot part frm. The most important part of my life.

10. Learned to waste time .. and yes hav mastered it .. more than dhruv .. and anybdy else in my wing. ORKUT has been developed for people like me only ;)

11. Love to listen to others .. specially there problems .... since last 1 year i have come across some very interesting people have heard there problems & tried to provide a solution .. though i havent ever found solutions to mine

12. At times i can be very pathetic .... specially when i m sad & pain takes over me.

13. Easily influenced by others [ BAD i knw it .. but hey i m learning ]. ANd i do trust people very easily. So i m kindof an open book to most of my friends.

14. Though quite open .. yet i m very shy .. if i dont knw u .. never expect tht i will approach u first .. sorry thts not gonna happen.

15. love babies . Those young & mishievious kids & their very innocent acts .... though they can be headache at times .. but its worth it.

16. My friends r my life .. they make my life move swiftly & with fun .. cant imagine a life without family & friends.

17. Always in search of tht special one. I have always believed tht GOD has made a special one for every individual .. all he forgot was to make it sure tht the two meet. SO only some lucky people manage to find her .. and knowing tht i m not tht like .. all i can do is search. Hope i find her shortly & quickly.

18. love this blog stuff. THe only creative stuff in life.

19. I m crazy abt travelling [ though havent been to many places ] .. but wish to see most parts of d world. THings r beautiful out there.

20. ANd finally i am a dancing freak. Once on the dance floor .. my feets dont stop till they throw me out .. so anyone throwing a party do keep me in mind.

PHEW .... there r things tht seem simple but turn out to be noncracking nuts ..

ANd now for Mirage ....

I. 7 things i want to do before i die:
1. live !!
2. write a book
3. be a bit knowledgeable
4. hear : " I love u " from a girl
5. find the right girl ..MArry .. have children .. and fun ofcourse
6. learn photography
7. visit lots of places on mother earth

II. 7 things i can do:

1. talk .. talk .. talk .. whtelse do u need
2. dance...quite a sort of!
3. waste time .. almost all of it
4. think [ not sure actually ]
5. eat .. most of the gud things
6. love .. just try & u wont be dissapointed
7. trust u .. thts the best i can do .. its up to u .. ditch me or not ..ur choice

III. 7 things i say the most:

1. u knw what ..
2. bullshit
3. pagal hai kya
4. hmmmmmmmmm
6. Shit !!!!!
7. kya yaar !! [ in a dull & pathetic way ]

IV. 7 things i cant do:

1. Study !!
2. be someone i'm not
3. stop eating .. loving people around
4. live without music
5. have dirty feet [ uggggggghhhhhhh get off me ]
6. cant make conversation gor long long ours .. i nevr understood why dont people talk sensible alwayz
7. cant look eye to eye [ i m learning though ]

V. 7 things that attract me to the opposite sex:

1. innocent face
2. eyes
3. hairs
4. honesty
5. confidence
6. voice
7. how dumb she is [ lol ]

VI. 7 Celebrity crushes: [ hey i read it wrong ... so chnges r there ]

1. kate winslet [ very beautiful ]
2. Tom Cruise [ hes worth it ]
3. Keanu Reeves [ its all bcause of sweet nov .... so let it be .. CHARLIZE THERON]
4. Abhishek Bachhan & hrithik roshan [ MANDI MOORE ]
5./* ricky martin [ ofcourse not for his songs ] */ [ avril lavigne ]
6. natasha [ cute face ]
7. Ganesh Hegde - 'G' [ dancing sensation ] ..... [ kareeena kapoor .. all bcause of KYUN KI .. she looked gorgeous ]

VII. 7 people i want to tag:
1. johney
2. shveta [luke ]
3. Triple six
4. taru [phoenix]
5. anand
6. rennie
7. xtremely_insane

finally done with it. hmm good .. wasnt it ??

It was this day ....

Once upon a time ....

THere was a soul .. a happy go creature .. nice & jolly .. a happening dude [ even souls have these days salutations .. they adapt u see ] .. happy with the place he dwelled in .. all & everything was fine there .... the people .. the resources .. evrything was just perfect. Then one fine day he was called by GOD . He wished to meet him .... wanted to thank him for whtevr he received frm him .

He went to meet him .... when he was there ... he heard a voice [ GOD is invisible to souls as well ] .. it called

GOD :: " MY dear son .. u no more belong to the place u dwelled in .. now u will have to move .. i wish u to go to mother earth "

SOUL :: " [ all startled .. no more thankful ]MY lord wht wrong have i done. I m happy with whatever i have got .. u have been kind to me .. plz dont send me to tht sinful place .. "

GOD :: " MY son .. u havent done anything .. whatever i have created is all moveable .. nothigs stagnant .. and so isnt ur life .. so u will have to move .. to tht place though sinful .... its when u travel tht road u realise tht u arent meant to be far frm me .. ur a part of me .. and then when u suffer .. when u encounter pain .. u wish to come back to me .... "

SOUL :: " DEar lord i abide by ur decisions .. but my lord guide me .. tell me the reasons of my being there .. guide me lord .. show me the way .. "

ANd then GOD explained .....

GOD :: " My dear son .. there is a women out there who has lots of love to give & lots of care to render .. tht women needs someone whom she can shelter in her own body .. give it life .. she wants someone whom she cud shower immense love on .. tht she carries in her heart .... someone who wud be her pride .. someone who wud hide his mischiefs .... someone whom she wud protect .. whom she wud teach how to pray & give love ..someone whos handmade food u wont resist .. someone for whom she wud be the most beautiful women in the universe .... SHe will be ur MOTHER .. "

SOUL :: " Yes my lord "

GOD :: " Dear son theres a man out there .. he will be the source of ur existence .. he wants someone who will be his image .. he has lived his youth .. now he wants someone with whom he cud play .. someone who wud learn to walk holding his finger .. someone who wud realise the dreams tht he had but he cudnt fulfill ... someone who wud carry forth the honour & respect tht he had earned .... someone whom he wont hug .. but his eyes wud say it all ... someone who wud argue with him but with all due respect .. someone who wud grow taller than him .... someone who wud be his SON ... U will call him FATHER ... "

GOD :: " There r souls out there ... who r of the same age as u are [ yes souls do have ages .. i mean they live forever .. but theres this younger & elder stuff wrt there arrival on mother earth ] .. some younger & some elder .... they need someone whom they cud play with ... someone with whom they cud share secrets tht arent even known to there mom & dad .. someone with whon they can hangout .. have fun .. someone who is always there for them .. both in odd & even times ....someone who understands tht there mood is not good today yet messes with them .... someone to fight with .. someone on whos shoulder they cud cry .. someone who will be half their life .... THEY will be ur FRIENDZ .... "

SOUL :: " yes my lord "

GOD :: " Dear son theres a soul .. which resides in a girls body .... she wants someone who takes care of her more then her mother .. someone as handsome & respectable as her father .... someone more adorable then her DOGGY .. someone with whom she cud spend hrs yet not knw of time .... someone who wud adore her all her life .... someone who cud look in to her eyes & not blink .. someone whom she cud trust more then herself .... someone who is the dream of her life .. the same person she used to drean abt during childhood .... the price charming on tht black horse .. someone who wud run his fingers through her hair .... someone who wud nevr make her cry .. someone who wud dry her tears .. someone who when gives her tears follows it with a kiss .... someone who make her close her eyes and gives her a surprise hug .. someone who wont ditch her ever .... someone with whos eyes she wud see the world .. someone who wud be the world for her .. someone she cud hug .. she wont feel cold in the warmth of his arms .... someone who wud make her giggle .. someone for whom she is the most beautiful women in the universe after his mother .... someone who wud always forget to bring her chocolates .... someone whos her best friend & soulmate .. someone whos the best gift of her life ..send by ME [ GOD ] only for her .... someone who wud be her life .. THE SPECIAL ONE .... someone very special .... SHE will be the LOVE OF UR LIFE .. "

SOUL :: " Oh my lord "

GOD :: " There r people who want someone whom they can give the knowledge they have .. sometimes they wud be weird & total headache .. but truly they arent tht bad [ though they arent tht good as well ] .. they will make u learn .. they will be ur TEACHERS ... "

GOD :: " SO many people need u there .. for all these deeds .. arent these reasons fair enough .. "

SOUL :: " My lord i respect ur decisions [ DO I HAVE A CHOICE !! ] .. but we have similar people out here as well [ souls do have g.f 's in heaven as well .. lol .. theres no place where these girls cant reach ] ... so whts the need to go on tht sinful place ?? "

GOD :: " My dear son .. u do have the similar kind of people here .. but the relations here r not the same .. everything here seems to be nice & fine .. but there it wont be .. u will be wacked by ur mom .. but theres a hidden love & lesson behind it .... ur father wont agree with u on most of the things .. but thts becuase he wishes u to be on the right path .. he wont let u fall anytime .. ur friends .. u will have the worst of fights with them .. u might not talk for dayz .. but if anyone dared hit u .. hes is ON for a slaughter .. ur friend wont let him go before hes killed .. he wud hug u when ur in tears .. and make u laugh with his PJs ..... and sometimes everyone wont be a friend .. people will ditch u .. then u will learn tht they r the same souls but at a sinful place .. and thus they have turned ..... so u will learn .. evry moment .. every hug .. evry whack .. every ditch will teach u a lesson ....... and my son i wish u to learn ...... it wud be pain & love at the same time .... but u will learn ..... "

SOUL :: " Ok my lord .. i wish to experience .. give me ur blessings & let me face the world .. but this is the first & last time ... "

GOD :: " ya go & have fun .....and hey .. Ur name will be ANUJ .... "

PS :: I just kept on writing and the day when i was born passed ... but as i was abt to complete it .. the power went off & the UPS ditched me .. no wonders i learned a lesson .. i managed to save it .. but when power resumed there wasnt a thing ... bullshit technology .... neways renny encouraged me to write it again .... finally i did ....... but as u knw things tht r written first r original and D BEST ... neways ... i m 21 .. sounds old .. and i do hate it .. i wish the time to stop .. i wish i m 19 .. alwyzz ... why to wish for things tht wont happen ever .. so .. HAPPY BDAY TO ME ...lov u all ;)

home 2

It wasnt long enough since i came back from home .. and i headed again for it. And guess wht .. i took a pretty wierd route to reach home .. sometimes it better to see India .. then go straight with those boring train journeys. So reached FIROZABAD via bus [ frstly reached AGRA .. had a nice pizza at PIZZA HUT .. rang the bell in happy mood ]. Then caught the train frm there. Well i always look for some interesting things during these journeys. And i m hardly disappointed .. rather my eyes manage to find some or the other interesting stuff.

ONE FLASH GIRL ::

So there it was this time as well. To an angle of 45 degrees approx. was sitting a MUSLIM girl .. somewht cute .. somewht innocent. And then ofcourse started those EYE games .. looking .. then pretending to be not looking .. sometimes gazing .. sometimes the eyes smiled .. and sometimes amazed. And u already knw how bad i m at all this. ANd to my utter happiness she landed up at kanpur only .... but nevr saw her after tht. May be wont see her ever.

But there r sme faces u see in ur life .. they r there in front of for hrs only .. but the memories r long lasting. And i do have enough sapce in my innocent heart for some cute innocent aquaintances.

LYCRA MTV STYLE AWARDS ::

TV is the best buddy at home. I donno why my 2 bros arent in to watching english movies .. and they make my survival as a "NON BORING GEEK" difficult. umm for me TV is all abt MTV, Channel V, Star Movies, HBO, Star World .... nothing else [ a bit of laughter champions though ].

So it was Lycra MTV style awards .. a blend of fashion and music . One of the satisfying organised events i have watched. Well i do have an inclination towards fashion these days .. Though the kind of clothes they wear during these shows cudnt be weared .. so wht .. the show was fun .. with .. Bombay rockers .. the Swamis .. & lots more.

ANd at the end they had a WILD party ....i have always wished to be a part of such wild parties [ ya i m a dancing freak .. anybdy inviting ?? ] but nevr managed to be a part of any of them.

MTV KYA BAAT HAI ::

hmm a nice show. Very nice indeed. Discussing some very untouched social topics .. takes notes frm both the youth & the grownups . Last they were discussing on HOMOSEXUALITY ... and there was one girl .. seemed somewht disturbed .. saying : " Homosexuality is a sin .. and the bible says so " [ she was frm DELHI i guess ] .... then one other girl from bangalore said :: " Lady i think u have a problem .. so go and get LAID [ oooooooopsss ] .. and i have read my bible .. it does mention abt homosexuality .. chap. 22 " ....

I was kind of fun tht argument ... and hey i m not writing this so to defend homosexuality or something .. its a general comment.

AGENT LOVE ::

Two girls gave some nice tips on kissing ;)

GARAM MASALA ::

Again one of those trying to make people laugh by doing all sorts of controversial comedy .. gud .. but bad as well. Akshay at its prime ... i mean hes meant for those mishievious roles na ..... lol .. john .. superb overacting .. he aint a comic guy [ sorry if i hurt someone .. i knw MEGHA's a fan .. but admit it .. hes not gud at comedy man .. all i love abt JOHN is his VOICE .. and the CUTE DIMPLE SMILE ] .

KYUN KI .. [ i dont knw whos fate is it .. mine of there ] ::

Nice but obnoxious at times. Umm i nevr understood wht were they trying to show. Salman dies in the end [ ha ha ha i ruined someones movie haan .... ]. The songs r obviously gud. Kareena liked after a million years .. wud continue hating her soon ..

well thts it i guess .... did few more things. Though it wasnt boring as was dusshera .. but yet u knw this freaky mind demands fun every second .. and the heart conspires .. and thus i feel a bit of boredom.

SO happy diwali friendz.

Light up my thoughts & my dreams
Let the mind think & the heart conspire
GOd .. show me the way ....
take me to LOVE ...

PS :: gone crazy for 'G' - Ganesh Hegde .. the songs so so .... but wht a superb dance man. DAncing sensation na. THe last 2 lines r frm BRIDE & PREJUDICE .. wasnt tht bad a movie .. is it ??