Walking Together !!

Hey witnessed another beautiful morning & all of them inspire me to write something ( though crap ...lol ).



Walking Together

I wish that we walk together in this mist called life ...... being close ..... following one another ..... leading when the other is wrong ..... holding when one stumbles ...... but for sure the path is not a bed of roses .....lol ....the path has not yet begun ..... we arent close .... neither together ....... but i wish this world of dreams never ends ..


These lush green fields
Oh these high rising mountains
This cool touching breeze
Oh this sound of running water
They all invite me !!

These fields invite me to join
To join the joy of being down to earth
The joy of being stable
The joy of being tempered yet being productive !!

Oh these high mountains invite me to rise
To rise to touch the sky yet feets on the ground
Being rough and hard yet beautiful
To stand with that sense of pride !!

This cool breeze invites me to swirl
Be a part of the untouched fragrance
The delight of being free
The power to make things move !!

Oh the sound of running water invites me to flow
The peace of quenching ones thirst of desires
The pride of being 70 % of you, me & everyone
The fun of free fall from up above !!

But all these invitations sound worthless
If you arent a part of me
If we dont rise yet being stable
If we dont fall freely in this HELL called LOVE !!

So do u accept thy invitation .......[ SHE ] ....


PS :: I was half asleep when i wrote this ....lol ... so dont mind .

What should I do ??

Some beautiful demanding lines not written by me but they really convey my feeling ::

What have I got to do to make you love me
What have I got to do to make you care
What do I do when lightning strikes me
And I wake to find that you're not there

What do I do to make you want me
What have I got to do to be heard [ Elton john's song ].

( i wrote here onwards )
What have I got to do to make u mine
What do I do to beat my destiny & conquer you !!

What should I do to make you feel as I do
What would I do when i will realise tht getting You is impossible
What should I do when you haunt me in my thoughts
What would I do when you will become an addiction !!

What can I do when i feel so helpless
What can I do when I long to be close
What do I do to make go things our way
What do I do so that You understand What u mean to me !!

What Should have I done When u said u dont recall me
What should I do when i am sick of thinking abt You only
What should have I done when I had all opportunities but no Luck
What should I do when I wish to fight Destiny !!

What do I do when i knw that i cannot resist this feeling
What do I have to do to be sane
What can I do to remove the distances
What do I have to do to feel blessed !!


The Crux of the Whole "What Should I do" story is :::::
What should one do when hes in LOVE !!!!

All Alone !!

Hey no misinterpretations ........I m surrounded by lots of loving people close & far...... but its just tht i did a NIGHT OUT (not the blog yaar )..... and i was eventually able to witness a very beautiful morning .....and in this weird mind of mine came a geeky thought of writin a poem ...... and ugghhhhhhh this time i realised how pathetic a poet i can be. I guess my earlier posts were still worth readable .....but i still dare to post is cause its original right frm heart CRAp ....hope u wont like it .....lol........

With the sun about to rise
And Moon about to vanish
Smelling this cool breeze
I sit here all alone

The morning all beautiful awaits
The dark night still not over
In this dilemma of happiness & being lonely
I sit here all alone

The future seems to be bright
But dont knw the path tht is right
On this edge of identifying reality
I sit all alone

Theres no one around me
Was there anyone around me ??
Will there bw someone around me ??
Sighing on these unknown answers
I sit here all alone

There seems to be a road ahead
But its all unknown & lonely

Standing here at the crossroad of life
I wish that SHE holds my hand
And WE walk this road altogether
With no fear & lonliness ........

SO tht I dont have to sit here all alone ..................lol

So tht was it .......THe CRAp .....

Party Sharty !!

Hey hi Blog !! Long time no post. I was busy with my new blog ......but still nobody read it ..... go DUDES !!

This evening had a very nice party to welcome the new comers in the college ..... well the only good part abt it was I GOT TO DANCE !! I love doin that ..... i mean i m not that good a dancer ..... DANCE as if NO Ones WATCHING !!!!

Danced for long hrs with friends ... seniors... juniors & all .... It was real enjoyment.

Last few days have been very dramatic ...... well they always have been there. U go for a class .... waking up early .... disturbing all ur sweet dreams ( i rarely get them )... And with those sleepy eyes & unwashed body ... we go to see a face giving us some kind of lecture that would make us COMPUTER GEEKS !! But the face never appears .... the teacher doesnt come ..... lol

And when someone shows a rare appearance he/she is not alone ...... he brings abt the others as well ..... and then u have 12 classes on saturdays & sundays .... all of them trying to make an appearance at the same day & may be same time .... TOO BAd !!!!

WEll to tell u abt the MOOD .... well i think its runnin on some kind of timeline .... varies every now & then ....U may be feeling happy abt not having classes & being free ..... but then that enthu of making a career (obviously a bright one) creeps in ....... & then that emptiness is always there ..... lol .... Me ... EMPTY .... My friends would laugh ....i mean emptiness of thoughts ....

All in all its like ::::

Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real

There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming/confusing
This lack of self-control I fear is never ending
Controlling/I can't seem


To find myself again
My walls are closing in
(without a sense of confidence and I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
So insecure



Discomfort,endlessly has pulled itself upon me
Distracting/reacting
Against my will I stand beside my own reflection
It's haunting how I can't seem...

Boring days

The days r real bore. The nights long and hard. Dont feel like sleeping, eating and no normal stuff. Scrueing my studies as always. Every today i promise myself to study TOMMOROW & i wait for a better tommorow. But as they say : " Tommorow Never Comes " & it truly never came till now. And i am desperately waiting for a tommorow that will become my TODAY.

Bored with all this stuff & after getting a 24 hr. internet connection at my room (which wastes most of my time) i got another NEW blog. This one is different & goin to be fun. Its a kind of combined blog. Its going to be Me & one of my friends Rennie (from Brazil). Even i wish to see how this India-Brazil combo works. The start seems to be fine, lets see where it goes. Listening to all this one wont be surprised that i am a TOTAL INTERNET TIME WASTER ( People usually call these geeks : Internet Savvy ).

Dont know whats goin to happen tommorow. But as natural i have made another promise for another tommorow. I guess nobody can help me, i need to sit back and think. Possesed with all these thoughts & the beauty of season I wish for a MIRACLE.....

Tell Me UR Dreams.......

Came out with another poem.
Share ur dreams with me. Make me a part of ur thoughts & feelings............


On all dark and moonlit nights
I long to share ur dreams
On all harsh and withdrawing days
I care to hear ur deeds

In all odds & unsupporting evens
I wish to take a stand
On every stumble & fall
I long to hold ur hand

In days of fun & frolic
I hope to see u smile
In all ur wins & achievements
I hope to see u go wild

In moments of love & hatred
At times of hope & despair
For all my life .....
I LONG TO MAKE U MINE !!!!

PS : Now the excitement has turned in to a TRAUMA !!

EXCITED !!!!

HEY i m excited rather too exited. Its not that theres no reason. Yes definitely there is one but may be cant share it. And I feel this excitement would kill me, its kind of overwhelming.

U never know what things u might do when u get excited. U feel like going out of all bounds, breaking the shell & may be fly high. Its all emotional & lovely. U feel that something very fresh & nice has touched u. U feel lifted, in ur thoughts & deeds. U behave like a geek (thou i always do so, nothing special). U feel special, very special. And i feel all of this, and may be one could imagine how happy these things can make one.

In our life we get very few moments when we feel elevated. Few moments of happiness & pride. But u know they would vanish soon. Its like a mist of air. Sooothing & refreshing but not long lasting.
And when its gone ur again surrounded by that darkness of lonliness. All scared & insecure. I guess i will have to find ways to get excited more often now. But who am i fooling ?? THYSELF.......

Well yesterday evening was a mixed one. I woke up after a nice sleep & with something crept in my mind. Felt as if i was there standing alone on a lonely ISLANd with noone around. And as i went to the hostel balcony, there was this beautiful scenic sky. Nature can give u such happiness.
SO now it became a mixed attitude. I hate this stuff.

WEll dont know what i wrote CAUSE I M EXCITED ..........TO THE MAX....... May be the whole day is going to be fun. Atleast i have few days to remember in my life. Good for me.

Friends

Nothing much happening in life. A usual wake up in the morning, doin some daily sruff, getting ready ,taking the breakfast in a hurry so as not to get late for the class & when u reach the Academic block u wait...........wait........wait...........and the prof never appears as if he never was there. Same old story. Dont know what life has in store but one things for sure that this schedule will never change. And whats wrong even we are happy for not having a class & getting ample of time to waste.

Well got a new FWD & the poem is really cool :

>>>>>>>>>>>>Around the corner I have a friend,

> > > > > > In this great city that has no end,

> > > > > > Yet the days go by and weeks rush on,


> > > > > > And before I know it, a year is gone.

> > > > > > And I never see my old friends face,

> > > > > > For life is a swift and terrible race,

> > > > > > He knows I like him just as well,

> > > > > > As in the days when I rang his bell.

> > > > > > And he rang mine but we were younger then,

> > > > > > And now we are busy, tired men.


> > > > > > Tired of playing a foolish game,

> > > > > > Tired of trying to make a name.

> > > > > > "Tomorrow" I say! "I will call on Jim

> > > > > > Just to show that I'm thinking of him."

> > > > > > But tomorrow comes and tomorrow goes,

> > > > > > And distance between us grows and grows.

> > > > > > Around the corner, yet miles away,

> > > > > > "Here's a telegram sir," "Jim died today."

> > > > > > And that's what we get and deserve in the end.

> > > > > > Around the corner, a vanished friend.

A nice poem, so plz let ur friends know how much u care & what ur life would be without them.

A Wish

Came up with something. U r still in my thoughts........

Sometimes u feel very lonely
At times u wish to hide
Sometimes u feel like crying
At times u wish to go wild !!!!

You wish to know who u are ??
What is ur IDENTITY ??
Moreover do u need one
Wrecked with all this cold war
I WISH TO LIVE ............

Life says I m not worth living
Heart says I beat for nobody
Soul says I have nothing worth giving
Mind says I wish u to be something
But SOmething ECHOES...........
I WISH TO LIVE..........

People come, people go
They wish to share (rather know )
But is it worth telling ??

- The burdens of my Soul
- The emptiness of Heart
- The corruption of Mind
- The lost control of Senses
- And the fact of not knowing THYSELF

So what should one do ??
MAY BE ...... JUST WISH TO LIVE...........

I feel Enamoured
But do I really know what LOVE is ??

Well couldnt find my answers
May be I never will ....

Then should one feel LONELY
should one wish to HIDE
should one feel like CRYING
should one go WILD ??

SHOULD ONE ........... WISH TO LIVE ........

Lost in quetions & unfound answers
In illusions of being Enamoured

I WISH TO LIVE
TO LIVE ALL CONFUSED, ALL MAD
BUT ONLY WITH YOU [ SHE ].

PS : NOTHING

Back & Fresh

hi friends. I m back...........though i was never gone. But wasnt in to writing & its good to know that few of u missed it. It has been long since i wrote last. Lots things have happened and lots of them r happening.

I have come in to third year of my engineering. Now its feels like i have grown up........ rather it feels old seeing the first year kids enter in to the college. But then they say " U have to be young at ur heart ". And i m & will be for all my life. Amy be i m learning to be a bit happier. Or is it the people around me that make me feel so. Whatever it is life is getting better. May be for a while but it is.

well dont have much to write, but it wont take long.