the sun goes down ... to rise !!

Time passes & u dont know that it had . Its when u look back to turn the pages of life .. u realise that it was past. And if it was sad & insane .. u kind of laugh .. rather ur happy that u got through it .. but u knw tht they might turn up again.

This friday one more year passes. And everyone around the globe would celebrate [ may be me as well ] . Everyones ready to welcome the year ahead may be with sum grief, may be with love, may be with laughter, may be with ecstacy or may be a death. Who knows ?? But time stops for none !!

2005

1. Well its been a dramatic year for me. At college 4 th & 5 th sem ended as all other previous ones .. nothin new as per academics .. & who even cares . Enjoyed the fests that came, enjoyed the victory & the defeat. Well dont remeber much of the winters ... but i do remeber d summers.

2. May 2005 :: After the end of 4 th sem .. we have this thing called an NGO internship, developing softwares for NGO's & stuff. Went to delhi .. worked in an NGO named IFSHA . This organisation was run by a women .. a women who seemed to have a vision .... and was a great speaker & thinker. Then our website manager shubz as all used to call her was another great lady .. with a nice smile & dedication towards her work. So it was a nice experience to be seriously working for d first time. and lolz got my first salary & gave it all to mom & dad .. sp dont ask for a treat :D .

3. It was then that i started this bloggin thing. And i cannot tell u how good it has been .. it has not only been a place where i can yell out everything .. almost everything .. but its been a place where i managed to find lotsa sweet friends & the journey continues. I mean its really awsome to know these people .. and the way life makes its way .. with people around u .. where u catch up with some of them & celebrate it. Its a sweet feeling.

4. There was a state when i went totally insane .. and the only that i used to write was abt pain & all that creepy stuff. And even i didnt knew why i did that .. was there any pain truly .. or was i pretending to be painful jst to gain some attention .. dont knw it till now.

5. New friends made :: taru, manleen, megha , anand, bubbles, rennie & kavita is d new one . so lots of them . some nice dudes & dudettes.

So in all its been a great year . A year where i have realised tht love aint about holding .. its abt lettin go & freedom , friendship aint about being close .. its about being there always .. lending a shoulder be it real or virtual .. showering a smile be it real or an E - Smile .... understandin the other & lettin him understand u .. its also about writing stupid poems for your friends [ right taru ?? :D ] .

A year when i have relished a kids smile .. another year where i have had infinite crushes [ thts expected of me i guess ] ..... an year where ultimately i termed myself a hopeless romantic [ but the word hopeless aint the crux here ] .. an year after which i might turn out to be greatest dude ever .. an year which has been quite boring and yet full of fun .... an year full of friends .. an abnormal year .

So friends lets welcome the year ahead . lets see where we end up .

PS :: HAppy New Year to all . This night i m off to delhi .. to enjoy .. and may this year bring all hapiness in ur life. May god bless u this year as well :D .

Anuj .

TAgged again !!

This ones by Anchal . Hav to write a 55 words rhyming story . Now this sounds a bit scary. Hav written some poems [ good or bad donno ] but this ones scary. Its not tht i wont love to do it .. its great but the scary part is d word limit .. if things doesnt work out u dont feel like writing but if its goin good & u feel gud abt wht ur writin then the word limit suks .

Hey anchal , dont blame me now .. i asked u in a comment .. no replies till now [ u see how busy a wella can get .. hehe ] so i m postin it finally breakin the 55 word rule & moreover i managed 2 of them [ when it comes to written crap .. all u can do is to comeup with more of it ;) ]. And why i say this .. cause i m scared of tht DHAMKI there .. GAAA WD !! :D

So here it is :

I . Ahh .. this damn world

They had walked hand in hand
Along the sea, on the sand ...
They were great, very adorable
Lovely & always there for one another ..

They surfed on the waves of passion
Made love .. compassion was there expression
Feelings were all they cared for
which day by day became intense more

They decided to marry & live happily ever after
To face the damn world together ..
But fate as usual was hard
Destiny hadnt allowed a marriage card ..
[ parents against ..
..
.......... listenin this they didnt faint ]

One usual day they went up the hill
Sang to each other JACK & JILL
Passionately kissed one another
Jumped together hand in hand
and lived happily ever after for eternity !!

II . Love - too heavy to sail [ titanic ]

On the deck he saw her
Wearing a coat of fur ..
She was as beautiful as the moon
As if she jst came out of the cocoon

He had never thought of such a strange meeting
He saved her from falling over the railing
still they were strangers
very much the strangers

But the moments swayed them close
And he was in love with ROSE
he showed her the world she always longed for
and it was then that she falled for him more

Even the huge ship couldnt bear such heavy love
and ran in to an iceberg below & above
It was due to sink & go down
As if the SEA wanted that big a crown

They went down together
Hand in hand .. promising to love forever
the lil boy saved her again .. a true lover
they were apart .. but she didnt forget him ever

Thats what love is .. settin the other free
And it is then that one says " YOU R NOT YOU .. YOU R ME "


Now comes d real thing . I m gonna tag five people now .... hahaha [ devil ]

1. DHRUV
2. MANLEEN
3. MEGHA
4. ILLETRATE SNEHA [ she is kiddin .. she knows a hell lot .. hehe ]
5. ROHIT TALWAR

SO get on d job buddy .. and nothin like .. i m not gonna do it .. come on be sporty :D .

i know that i dont know !!

I so wanna run
Dont know where to
I so wanna hide
Dont know behind what

Somethings calling me
Dont know who it is
Somethings holding me
Dont know how is it managing

I talk to the moon
Cant tell u about what
I face the cool breeze
In the hope to freeze out

I feel hapiness inside
Dont know how i figured it out
I listen to a song continuously
Dont know how i tease my ears

I realise what is love
Dont know if i m sure
I keep thinking about someone
Dont know if it thinks of me

I wish to adore someone
Dont know if it wud adore me the same
I wish to hold someone close
Dont know it wud stay in my arms or run away

I know it ends up in pain
Dont know why I wish for it then
I know pain has its own limits
Dont know what pleasure this pain has

I stand aside
A child .. an angel looks at me in hope
Dont know why i m perplexed
Dont know why i cant extend my hand
Dont know why i m afraid
May be i m engrosed with the feeling of being blessed
Dont know what waits for me
Dont know for what i wait till eternity

I know i m confused
Dont know if i m the solution
Dont know if i m the problem
Dont know .... just dont ..

All i know is that I will be a hopeless romantic
Nothings gonna change
Dont know if its bad or good
Whatever it is .. It is ME !!


PS :: sorry for d last dukhi post

who cares !! huh !!

The more u say Who cares !! the more u care. Then why the hell does one say tht ?? May be just to let it off his minds table .. just to create that aura of " This things not important to me .. and it hardly matters whtevr the outcome is " .... So that u dont have to suffer in case it doesnt turn out your way .. which is the most probable to happen. And when it doesnt turn out to be your way .. u pretend to be happy .. u see "IT HARDLY MATTERS" .. " I NEVER GAVE A DAMN TO IT " .... bullshit

This goes true max with relationships. U care for a girl .. start liking her .. and thus u develop certain expectations, truly speaking which u shudnt bcause this is a ruthless world .. and no one actually cares for u .. One might ask u : " How r u " .. or ask others : " How is anuj " .. as if they really care .. damn .. whtevr

So u shudnt have expectations .. try to keep it as plain as u can .. but then if u are a desperate hopeless SO CALLED ROMANTIC moron u cannot help it. It happens naturally .. u trust people easily. For them ur an open book .. with ur heart written out at everypage .. a book that everones interested to read at a first go .. but the time it doesnt suite there type of reading .. they put up some kind of bookmarks .. & leave .. leaving the book wrecked .. alone .. and shud the book care .. i guess it cant help it .. its meant to be read .. so it craves for a reader .. and again the same old story.

And even if someone stays for too long .. he will be like a tortoise .. ur an open book .. " KNOWN WELL " .. and u keep trying hard to get something out of the other person .... not because ur inquisitive just because u wish to feel that feeling of sharing .... U feel that when i have trusted u throughout & let u know me all .. why r u afraid to trust me .. and let things out .. but all goes in vain. Possibly thts wht u have to pay to be a hopeless romantic. But ur helpless cause when there was time u nevr tried to master the game of HIDING THINGS .. and now time wont allow u to learn .... so u cant help it .. and lol .. if ur a self maintained idiot then even others cant help it .... so no offences to anyone .. its not ur fault ..

And this mind is such an enemy of ur own thoughts .. U have to jst give it a signal tht things arent fine & u wish to feel A BIT SAD .. and it will setup the things for u .... throwing u out in the oceans of loneliness & sadness when u dont know how to swim & reach a peaceful island .. and all u end up is moving ur feets & hands in desperation to feel the ground .... but ur helpless .. not even drowned .. not even on shore .

How many times does it happen to u that u give up unto understandin life .. and decide with all conviction tht u arent gettin in to that dangerous web again .. but as i said earlier .. ur helpless .. evry moment it pulls u an inch towards itself again .. and with all ur force u cannot move out .. the only way out is to cut the vibe tht connects u & life .... and it is then that u realise that deaths a friend & not a foe :D

I am a little bit of loneliness, a little bit of disregard
Handful of complaints but I can't help the fact
That everybody can see these scars
I am what I want you to want, what I want you to feel
But it's like no matter what I do, I can't convince you
To just believe this is real
So I, let go watching you turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here cause you're all that I've got

I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored

I am, a little bit insecure, a little unconfident
Cuz you don't understand I do what I can
Sometimes I don't make sense
I am, what you never wanna say, but I've never had a doubt
It's like no matter what I do I can't convince you for once just to hear me out
So I, let go watching you turn your back like you always do
You face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here cause you're all that I've got

I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored

Hear me out now
You're gonna listen to me like it or not
Right now, hear me out now
You're gonna listen to me like it or not
Right now

I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored

I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored
I can't feel
Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored
Time won't tell
Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored

---- Faint ( Linkin Park )

PS :: hehe dont be surprised .. i m not a normal human being .. very insane indeed .. and i guess this is expected of me .. and hey nothings happened to me so plz dont confront .. i knw u care .. but who cares :D hehehe .. so remember whtevr happens .. u like me or not .. rather even if u hate me & wish tht i die the moment u read this ... " I LOVE U " .. muaaaaah !!

PS 1 :: sorry with all my hardwork .. i cannot jst hate anyone .. hehe .. yups i m setting things up fpr me here .... but whtevr .. how does it matter to u .. so i cannot hate u .. sp u can be as rude to me as possible & still i wont forget u .. i wont consider u an enemy .. rather ur unluky :D .. and thts ue fault not mine .. so again " CAnt help it ... I love u alll " ;)

sIgNiNg off .. ciao

You came to me as a nice surprise
You said you liked the way i write
In those days I was down and broken
And You werent different & unshaken

U came out as a phoenix
May be healed .. rising from the ashes
The world wasnt kind anymore
And u decided not to stay with that feeling
The feeling of not being known as oneself

I said I AM A FAN
And I mean it all
Its not because U r a girl
Its because U have touched my life
I know u arent leaving but still it cuts like a knife

You once said you dont forget anyone
Birds fly different destinations
but they dont forget places they dwell in
And so are u .. a bird .. flyin high .. very far away .. but very sweet & beautiful

You once said It aint necessary to meet physically to be friends
Friendship is what u have taught me
Friendship is what i have learned from u
Its not about distances .. its abt shortening them .. the wind is ur messenger

I know U arent gone .. Ur still there
I know U wont forget me .. Cause i wont let u
And for me u will be the same kiddoo !!
Not because ur a girl .. because ur TARU .. the TREE .. the PHOENIX .. the BIRD ..
and because ur my FRIEND !!

PS :::: TARU i didnt like u leaving ur blog .. but I msut respect ur decision .. and i guess thts wht friendship is. Hehehe .. i knw its lots of professor stuff :D .. but chalta hai .. be happy . And hey dont complain wy i wrote this .... this is my space & i can write wht i wish to !!

On the first cold day ..

For those moments of hapiness
u feel blessed
In those moments of ecstacy
u touch the crest

On the waves of ecitement
U surf
Along the winds of cold mountain
U whisper to ur heart

On the hurricanes of pleasure
u set ur ground
On those lovely music tunes
u move around ....

U shiver with the cold breeze
holding on to oneself tight
But its not oneself whom u feel
its some one hugging ur zeal

Those words of care entice u
U flatter on that simple smile
In Her actions of stupidity
U feel thy charm

U lend ur ears for all those babbles
U dont understand a word yet u dont toggle
U wont say a word to let her talk
On those winters when close she walks

U look in her eyes to read
her desires, love & feelings
she is all u need
for all ur healings

Confused to hold her in arms
Astonished with her charm
U try to make her giggle
It is her whom u tickle !!

U express your Love
U shower all the care
and u utter those words ....

But then ....

Lightning strikes in ur head
U wake up all perplexed
A smile on ur lips
the confusion up ahead

The dream is gone
you are back in to the world ....
the similar world .. the similar world ..

But yet U complete the unsaid ..
For wht .. For wht ?? May be just in cae
Just in case of what ?? .. JUST IN CASE OF LIFE
With those unopened eyes .. though they r bright with hope
With those fractured lips .. though they manage to put up a smile
with cluttered hairs and accompanied by a yawn ..
you utter .. " YOU ARE THE BEST THING THAT EVER HAPPENED TO MY LIFE "


PS :: I wrote this on the first cold day :D . Isnt this great u dont hav any idea whom ur saying this to .. but saying that to the air around u gives a kind of peace .. cause one day the wind will take away that air far far away with it .. close to her ears & whisper .. " YOU ARE THE ... " .. and for a moment she will smile. And not knowing who that she is .. is the fun of the game called LIFE